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27 [M4F] Edmonton/North America - Looking for an FFXIV Girlfriend!
2023.06.10 04:56 kranzler_zephyrus 27 [M4F] Edmonton/North America - Looking for an FFXIV Girlfriend!
Hey there! I’m a 27 year old straight man from Edmonton, Alberta in Canada which is also where I recently graduated with a degree in palaeontology!
As for hobbies, I play a lot of video games. Primarily I play JRPGs and rhythm games but there’s few genres I have no interest in. I play FFXIV a lot so if you’re into that that’s awesome! Would love to start a farm together in Stardew too! Or talk about games me love, I’ve been playing Zelda a lot recently.
I also enjoy anime although I’m a bit picky with what i watch. For music, I enjoy J-pop/rock, vocaloid stuff, game soundtracks, and 60s to 80s rock. Especially 80s hair metal. Oh also I’m a big fan of Star Wars and I collect Lego.
I’m looking for a girl to be friends with at first and see where things take us, maybe to something longer term if it works out.
Looking forward to hearing from you! I usually use discord to communicate so I’d love if you do too.
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As for hobbies, I play a lot of video games. Primarily I play JRPGs and rhythm games but there’s few genres I have no interest in. I play FFXIV a lot so if you’re into that that’s awesome! Would love to start a farm together in Stardew too! Or talk about games me love, I’ve been playing Zelda a lot recently.
I also enjoy anime although I’m a bit picky with what i watch. For music, I enjoy J-pop/rock, vocaloid stuff, game soundtracks, and 60s to 80s rock. Especially 80s hair metal. Oh also I’m a big fan of Star Wars and I collect Lego.
I’m looking for a girl to be friends with at first and see where things take us, maybe to something longer term if it works out.
Looking forward to hearing from you! I usually use discord to communicate so I’d love if you do too.
2023.06.10 04:46 DragJonFruit 24M Looking to make friends :D
Hey there! Could use some friends to get along with! Things about me:
My name is Jonathan
I work at Hobby Lobby I am 5’11
I love to be sarcastic and funny
I live in Texas
I have 3 dogs
I love to game and play stardew zelda, mario, halo, and a lot of other games. I am a gamer after all. If anyone wants to game! Let me know!
I love to go walking, going exploring in the woods and in general and i love nature in general.
I love to sing on my free time.
I draw and read young adult fantasy such as ACOTAR and the mortal instruments
I like Lorde, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Daft Punk, Green Day, Linkin Park.
I enjoy synthwave, rock, edm, etc
Just some things about me :)
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My name is Jonathan
I work at Hobby Lobby I am 5’11
I love to be sarcastic and funny
I live in Texas
I have 3 dogs
I love to game and play stardew zelda, mario, halo, and a lot of other games. I am a gamer after all. If anyone wants to game! Let me know!
I love to go walking, going exploring in the woods and in general and i love nature in general.
I love to sing on my free time.
I draw and read young adult fantasy such as ACOTAR and the mortal instruments
I like Lorde, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Daft Punk, Green Day, Linkin Park.
I enjoy synthwave, rock, edm, etc
Just some things about me :)
2023.06.10 04:43 phytomenace 23 [r4m] VA/USA - romantic silly title you will like
Me: - AFAB nonbinary - introverted, quiet, shy, autistic - 5’4”, plus-size, white, very short hair. Pictures on profile. - not from the highly populated area you’re hoping I am - struggling to get back into drawing - considerable plant collection, mostly succulents - terrible insomniac - definitely more of a cat person (I have three) - want a tattoo someday, terrified of all needles - want to learn to dance someday, horribly uncoordinated - non-drinking, non-smoking, non-gaming (mostly), non-religious - still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up - fan of cartoons/animation, graphic novels, The Boys, Chainsaw Man, indie-pop/alt music, random animal facts, and dark chocolate
You: - male - 24-30 - living in the USA. The closer the better. - childfree. This does not just mean "childless". - monogamous, LTR-minded, wanting to take things slowly. - nonsmoking, occasional drinking doesn’t matter. - won't insult me for fun/as a joke. A lot of people seem to like doing this before they've even gotten to know me. Being picked on that way turns me off. - bonus points if you're built like a bealook like a lumberjack. Not required, I just like that. I have no other preferences.
Tell me about yourself if you message. Age, location, hobbies, likes, dislikes, your ideal date night, whatever. Otherwise I will just assume you didn't read my post.
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You: - male - 24-30 - living in the USA. The closer the better. - childfree. This does not just mean "childless". - monogamous, LTR-minded, wanting to take things slowly. - nonsmoking, occasional drinking doesn’t matter. - won't insult me for fun/as a joke. A lot of people seem to like doing this before they've even gotten to know me. Being picked on that way turns me off. - bonus points if you're built like a bealook like a lumberjack. Not required, I just like that. I have no other preferences.
Tell me about yourself if you message. Age, location, hobbies, likes, dislikes, your ideal date night, whatever. Otherwise I will just assume you didn't read my post.
2023.06.10 04:33 BigBang5673 Where to buy ink refills for markers
I have some duel tip markers and in the middle of me coloring it was dry out on me so I was looking up what to do and some said alcohol that didn’t work for me so I want to try the other option and it is but ink refill for the specific color so I started looking up where I can buy but everything is online purchase in sketchy websites but I just want to know if there’s any art stores like hobby lobby etc that sells refills for alcohol based markers if so, please let me know
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2023.06.10 04:25 DragJonFruit 24M Looking to make friends :D [Chat]
Hey there! Could use some friends to get along with! Things about me:
My name is Jonathan
I work at Hobby Lobby I am 5’11
I love to be sarcastic and funny
I live in Texas
I have 3 dogs
I love to game and play stardew zelda, mario, halo, and a lot of other games. I am a gamer after all. If anyone wants to game! Let me know!
I love to go walking, going exploring in the woods and in general and i love nature in general.
I love to sing on my free time.
I draw and read young adult fantasy such as ACOTAR and the mortal instruments
I like Lorde, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Daft Punk, Green Day, Linkin Park.
I enjoy synthwave, rock, edm, etc
Just some things about me :)
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My name is Jonathan
I work at Hobby Lobby I am 5’11
I love to be sarcastic and funny
I live in Texas
I have 3 dogs
I love to game and play stardew zelda, mario, halo, and a lot of other games. I am a gamer after all. If anyone wants to game! Let me know!
I love to go walking, going exploring in the woods and in general and i love nature in general.
I love to sing on my free time.
I draw and read young adult fantasy such as ACOTAR and the mortal instruments
I like Lorde, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Daft Punk, Green Day, Linkin Park.
I enjoy synthwave, rock, edm, etc
Just some things about me :)
2023.06.10 04:17 NittiFireTTV Star Wars Autographs
I would like to know where the best place to go for getting my Star Wars autograph pictures framed. I know Michael’s and Hobby Lobby are popular places but I’m wondering if there are any others that you all recommend.
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2023.06.10 04:08 richi-carmen Aspects influencing the outcome of timber pellet mill
 | Wood pellet mill is an important tools in manufacturing, so in the manufacturing process, what variables can influence the result of wood pellet mill devices? submitted by richi-carmen to pelletmachinery [link] [comments] 1. Several elements influencing the result of timber pellet device In the adhering to, Richi Device will present to you several major elements that affect the result of sawdust wood pellet mill: ( 1) Grease. Add 0.5% to 1% of oil, which is beneficial to reduce the wear of timber pellet device parts, as well as make the pellets conveniently travel through the die holes and boost the outcome. Keep in mind, however, that when the boost in oil goes beyond 2%, it will make the pellets challenging to form. 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Biomass gas is clean as well as environmentally friendly, fairly reduced in price, and has a wide variety of applications. It can be made use of in urban home heating, home heating, resorts, bathing and also various other industries. It is anticipated that the reserves of underground oil, natural gas and coal are just sufficient for around 60 years according to the present exploitation as well as use price. Consequently, biomass power is an important development direction of renewable energy in the future. Richi Machinery specializes in the design, advancement and also sales of biomass pellet mill devices, timber pellet mill, straw pellet mill devices, and so on. It is among the fastest growing suppliers in China's biomass pellet machine market, with strong production experience and technical stamina. 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2023.06.10 03:51 PoipoleADMyt Tier List.
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2023.06.10 03:41 Achilleszero01 Question regarding Reconsideration for UST
submitted by Achilleszero01 to Tomasino [link] [comments]2023.06.10 03:36 codymason84 That arceus tin from hobby lobby hits different. I’m legit at a loss for words.
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2023.06.10 03:15 oddnded 26 [M4F] US / Anywhere - Are you trying to find someone to eternally pester you? Look no further
TL;DR: Just some tired dude trying to find a half decent connection at best. If you have a disdain for games, movies, banter, cars, or humor as a whole just pass me up. Also, if you're keen on one sided conversations too
I'm attempting to find an actual relationship, if it happens. The people I have spoke to over the last several years of my life are either too busy or are different people now. I miss having someone to talk and complain to everyday about whatever + that seemingly care, y'know? The idea of having a partner that fills that role sounds ideal
I will say it would probably be ideal if you could relate to like the older online era. I mean, we're talking like peak CoD lobbies, Habbo, and similar shit. Idk, it seemed like back then people were more fun. Lol I've found they're usually less sensitive too
Honestly, I could care less if it's SFW, NSFW, or a mix when it comes to conversations. I'm relatively open minded in general and don't take to getting offended easily for the most part. The only things I ask are for you to be somewhat close to my age, honest, and relatively blunt. I mean, bonus if you can relate to the tired feeling. Well, that or if you can tolerate it at the very least. I don't want to list an absurd amount about myself, because I feel that ruins actual back and forth to a degree, personally
About You: • Non-sensitive and can handle banter, jokes, and memes while also returning
• Somewhat available and able to reply in a decent amount of time
• Has an ability to express interest or converse about hobbies that aren't your own (on average used to people just passing by half of what I say)
• You can be equally boring as myself or worse tbh, as long as there's back and forth. If you're some mass extrovert then I can live vicariously through you in contrast lmao
• It would be cool if you enjoyed sharing music. I'm always looking for new stuff for my playlist
• You enjoy movies
I will say none of these are requirements. They're extremely preferred though tbh
About Me: • I turned twenty-six early this year, and feel awful. Regardless, quarter life crisis is still persisting lol
• I have relatively awful internet. So, games take forever to update, think a day or two depending. Also, at some point I want a sim rig (not at over the top one lmao)
• Tends to enjoy most forms of comedy, wether dark / offensive / dry etc + I agree with the stance of jokes being jokes
• Meme Archivarius and Aficionado
• I've been learning Norwegian for a few months now
• Cold weather / temps wins over hot weather / temps every time
• I have an absurd amount of hobbies; but, obviously frequent some more than others. So, the likelihood we at least share one in common is very high
• May as wells be a bottle of mental health issues, namely severe depression and general anxiety. So, if you struggle with mental health it's no issue. Honestly, would probably be nice if you can either relate or understand
• Sleeping is a struggle + my general sleep schedule is subpar
• Believes Elon Musk will end up creating catgirls, sooner or later
• Replies as quick as I nut
So, aside from all of that, feel free to ask me anything you'd like to know about me. I'm a relatively open book. If you're out to try and steal my identity you'll probably just end up disappointed lmao. Hopefully this finds you well, my dudes. Feel free to send me a chat (´• `")ゝ
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I'm attempting to find an actual relationship, if it happens. The people I have spoke to over the last several years of my life are either too busy or are different people now. I miss having someone to talk and complain to everyday about whatever + that seemingly care, y'know? The idea of having a partner that fills that role sounds ideal
I will say it would probably be ideal if you could relate to like the older online era. I mean, we're talking like peak CoD lobbies, Habbo, and similar shit. Idk, it seemed like back then people were more fun. Lol I've found they're usually less sensitive too
Honestly, I could care less if it's SFW, NSFW, or a mix when it comes to conversations. I'm relatively open minded in general and don't take to getting offended easily for the most part. The only things I ask are for you to be somewhat close to my age, honest, and relatively blunt. I mean, bonus if you can relate to the tired feeling. Well, that or if you can tolerate it at the very least. I don't want to list an absurd amount about myself, because I feel that ruins actual back and forth to a degree, personally
About You: • Non-sensitive and can handle banter, jokes, and memes while also returning
• Somewhat available and able to reply in a decent amount of time
• Has an ability to express interest or converse about hobbies that aren't your own (on average used to people just passing by half of what I say)
• You can be equally boring as myself or worse tbh, as long as there's back and forth. If you're some mass extrovert then I can live vicariously through you in contrast lmao
• It would be cool if you enjoyed sharing music. I'm always looking for new stuff for my playlist
• You enjoy movies
I will say none of these are requirements. They're extremely preferred though tbh
About Me: • I turned twenty-six early this year, and feel awful. Regardless, quarter life crisis is still persisting lol
• I have relatively awful internet. So, games take forever to update, think a day or two depending. Also, at some point I want a sim rig (not at over the top one lmao)
• Tends to enjoy most forms of comedy, wether dark / offensive / dry etc + I agree with the stance of jokes being jokes
• Meme Archivarius and Aficionado
• I've been learning Norwegian for a few months now
• Cold weather / temps wins over hot weather / temps every time
• I have an absurd amount of hobbies; but, obviously frequent some more than others. So, the likelihood we at least share one in common is very high
• May as wells be a bottle of mental health issues, namely severe depression and general anxiety. So, if you struggle with mental health it's no issue. Honestly, would probably be nice if you can either relate or understand
• Sleeping is a struggle + my general sleep schedule is subpar
• Believes Elon Musk will end up creating catgirls, sooner or later
• Replies as quick as I nut
So, aside from all of that, feel free to ask me anything you'd like to know about me. I'm a relatively open book. If you're out to try and steal my identity you'll probably just end up disappointed lmao. Hopefully this finds you well, my dudes. Feel free to send me a chat (´• `")ゝ
2023.06.10 02:39 szupresszor 20[M4F] Romania/Anywhere - Let's go together through everything, in the end being happy.
Hello there. I am a 20 years old guy from Romania, Europe. Lately I felt lonely and I decided to try my shot here trying to find someone truly special to share my days with. Currently I am working a full time job and I live alone in my own appartment. I am looking for someone to starts things slowly, not rushing it. I would like to talk about our daily routine, work/school, share our days about what happened or how we feel or any random topic we have in our mind. I am open to a long distance relationship. I enjoy videocalls and voicecalls aswell.
Some infos about my personality:
I am an introverted, shy and emotional. As a person I am caring, loving and protective and I give all my attention to the loved ones to make sure they feel good.
My appearance is the next:
Slim body type, 190 cm tall (6'2), 80 kg (176 lbs), blondish hair and blue eyes. I am open to exchange pictures too.
My hobbies and interests include the followings:
- Learning about new cultures and languages. Currently I speak two languages on native level which include Hungarian and Romanian and I would like to learn about other languages and cultures.
- History. My favorite topic of history would be the middle age (Eastern European) and the two World Wars.
- Geography. All the mountains, seas, rivers, lakes which are surrounding us are so beautiful. Since I live in a mountain city I used to hike too on smaller mountains.
- Sports. Mostly I enjoy playing and watching football which I used to practice too before, but now only as a hobby. Other sports which I like are handball and waterpolo.
- Music. I like to listen mostly to everything related to rock music and rap music. But I am open to other music genres too and I would like to hear about your music taste too.
- Gaming. In my free time when I am off from work I play games on my PC on Steam. Maybe we could play some games too together if you are up for it.
- Movies and series. I don't watch them that much, but if it's a good movie or serie I would not turn it down.
- Youtube. I like to watch travelling videos mostly. I like travel videos because one day I would like to travel too around the World if I have the opportunity.
If you are considering to send me a DM, make a small introduction. Mostly I use Discord to chat, if you are ok we can move there, but Reddit chat is fine too.
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Some infos about my personality:
I am an introverted, shy and emotional. As a person I am caring, loving and protective and I give all my attention to the loved ones to make sure they feel good.
My appearance is the next:
Slim body type, 190 cm tall (6'2), 80 kg (176 lbs), blondish hair and blue eyes. I am open to exchange pictures too.
My hobbies and interests include the followings:
- Learning about new cultures and languages. Currently I speak two languages on native level which include Hungarian and Romanian and I would like to learn about other languages and cultures.
- History. My favorite topic of history would be the middle age (Eastern European) and the two World Wars.
- Geography. All the mountains, seas, rivers, lakes which are surrounding us are so beautiful. Since I live in a mountain city I used to hike too on smaller mountains.
- Sports. Mostly I enjoy playing and watching football which I used to practice too before, but now only as a hobby. Other sports which I like are handball and waterpolo.
- Music. I like to listen mostly to everything related to rock music and rap music. But I am open to other music genres too and I would like to hear about your music taste too.
- Gaming. In my free time when I am off from work I play games on my PC on Steam. Maybe we could play some games too together if you are up for it.
- Movies and series. I don't watch them that much, but if it's a good movie or serie I would not turn it down.
- Youtube. I like to watch travelling videos mostly. I like travel videos because one day I would like to travel too around the World if I have the opportunity.
If you are considering to send me a DM, make a small introduction. Mostly I use Discord to chat, if you are ok we can move there, but Reddit chat is fine too.
2023.06.10 02:39 thelostpatronus Selling laserdisc collection
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2023.06.10 02:10 EdgyAllanPoe126 Well, This is a First!
This is my first post, and I'm no writer, but I felt the need to share this bizarre story with everyone. Has anyone else in the hotel industry experienced anything like this before??
For the sake of the story, names have been changed:
Manager1 - General Manager
Manager2- Front desk Manager
Jake- Housekeeper
Little bit of information: I've been in the hotel industry for about two years now as a front desk agent, so I've seen some shit, but this, is a whole other LEVEL! XD. Also, note, my hotel lobby is not connected to rooms, so the rooms are exterior entrance, surrounding my lobby.
So here is the story! It's 9:40 at night. I'm exhausted as I was finishing up a double shift, which started at 7 am and was to end at 11 pm. I start cleaning up as one does toward the end of their shift. Sweeping, mopping, coffee, etc. As I am doing this, I get the most panicked call I've ever heard! "Someone has been in my room!" She says.
"Excuse me? What did you say?" I replied, genuinely confused.
"Someone has been in my room! I just got back, and someone named Jake has left a note in my room!"
"Okay ma'am, take a breath with me." *We breath together* " Would you mind coming up to the front desk? Let's move rooms, and I'd like to see the note if that's okay."
She agrees and says she will be up in a few minutes. I look up the name Jake in my system and there is only one person in house with that as a LAST name. So, the confusion just continues. She comes up to the front desk, in pure panic again and presents the note.
"I'm calling the police! This is not okay! Do you know how terrifying this is as a woman who is alone in a hotel!"
While she is panicking, I read the note. This is what the note said (with name changed):
"Hi Miss. Are you single. My name is Jake. 555-555-1234. I was assigned your room and thought I'd ask before you leave. Have a good day, signed YOUR HOUSEKEEPER"
What. The. Hell. This housekeeper left a note in this woman's room while he was cleaning!
I compared the phone number to his number in my phone, and it was in fact his phone number.
I try to keep her calm, and assure her, this man is not currently working and "should" not be on property. "Ma'am, you have every right to contact police, but before you do, can I call management for their course of action, as this is an employee we are talking about."
She agrees to this, and it is at this point that she mentions that she leaves for work at 6 am and she did not return until about 9:30. She also mentioned that she did not request housekeeping services, and that she cannot confirm but she believes that her clothes have been rummaged through. Well, my housekeepers work from like 9a-12p, so this confused me even more! At what point did this housekeeper see this woman?
I contact manager2 and he tells me what to do for this poor woman such as offering her a larger room (in view of our camera to keep an eye on her.) Offered her a refund and asked for a picture of the note. He informed me he would let manager 1 know about all of this but that it wouldn't be until tomorrow to actually discuss everything and discuss consequences.
I inform the poor woman of all of this, and she was satisfied, however, still felt the need to contact law enforcement, because again, at what point did this man see her, she hasn't been on property except to sleep! I did also let her know that this housekeeper was not on shift again until Saturday and that she is safe.
I move her room to a mini suite and checked on her 2 more times before my shift ended. Police never showed up, but she claims a report was made. I let my night auditor know all of this and he kept on eye on things during his shift. Nothing fishy happened, which is great!
As I was leaving for the night, Manager 1 texted me and said this employee will be terminated Saturday morning (his next shift) as soon as he walks in the door. (That's what she said, but I imagine them having a meeting with him to be like, wtf dude, but who knows.)
*The next day*
I'm back at 7 am, and I had the pleasure of letting this woman know that this housekeeper is being terminated for this unacceptable behavior.
Manager 1 came in and was just speechless about the whole situation. She said in her 9+ years of working in hotels, she's never seen something like this!
Manager 2 said the same thing!
Has anyone else experienced something like this? I want to hear your story!
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For the sake of the story, names have been changed:
Manager1 - General Manager
Manager2- Front desk Manager
Jake- Housekeeper
Little bit of information: I've been in the hotel industry for about two years now as a front desk agent, so I've seen some shit, but this, is a whole other LEVEL! XD. Also, note, my hotel lobby is not connected to rooms, so the rooms are exterior entrance, surrounding my lobby.
So here is the story! It's 9:40 at night. I'm exhausted as I was finishing up a double shift, which started at 7 am and was to end at 11 pm. I start cleaning up as one does toward the end of their shift. Sweeping, mopping, coffee, etc. As I am doing this, I get the most panicked call I've ever heard! "Someone has been in my room!" She says.
"Excuse me? What did you say?" I replied, genuinely confused.
"Someone has been in my room! I just got back, and someone named Jake has left a note in my room!"
"Okay ma'am, take a breath with me." *We breath together* " Would you mind coming up to the front desk? Let's move rooms, and I'd like to see the note if that's okay."
She agrees and says she will be up in a few minutes. I look up the name Jake in my system and there is only one person in house with that as a LAST name. So, the confusion just continues. She comes up to the front desk, in pure panic again and presents the note.
"I'm calling the police! This is not okay! Do you know how terrifying this is as a woman who is alone in a hotel!"
While she is panicking, I read the note. This is what the note said (with name changed):
"Hi Miss. Are you single. My name is Jake. 555-555-1234. I was assigned your room and thought I'd ask before you leave. Have a good day, signed YOUR HOUSEKEEPER"
What. The. Hell. This housekeeper left a note in this woman's room while he was cleaning!
I compared the phone number to his number in my phone, and it was in fact his phone number.
I try to keep her calm, and assure her, this man is not currently working and "should" not be on property. "Ma'am, you have every right to contact police, but before you do, can I call management for their course of action, as this is an employee we are talking about."
She agrees to this, and it is at this point that she mentions that she leaves for work at 6 am and she did not return until about 9:30. She also mentioned that she did not request housekeeping services, and that she cannot confirm but she believes that her clothes have been rummaged through. Well, my housekeepers work from like 9a-12p, so this confused me even more! At what point did this housekeeper see this woman?
I contact manager2 and he tells me what to do for this poor woman such as offering her a larger room (in view of our camera to keep an eye on her.) Offered her a refund and asked for a picture of the note. He informed me he would let manager 1 know about all of this but that it wouldn't be until tomorrow to actually discuss everything and discuss consequences.
I inform the poor woman of all of this, and she was satisfied, however, still felt the need to contact law enforcement, because again, at what point did this man see her, she hasn't been on property except to sleep! I did also let her know that this housekeeper was not on shift again until Saturday and that she is safe.
I move her room to a mini suite and checked on her 2 more times before my shift ended. Police never showed up, but she claims a report was made. I let my night auditor know all of this and he kept on eye on things during his shift. Nothing fishy happened, which is great!
As I was leaving for the night, Manager 1 texted me and said this employee will be terminated Saturday morning (his next shift) as soon as he walks in the door. (That's what she said, but I imagine them having a meeting with him to be like, wtf dude, but who knows.)
*The next day*
I'm back at 7 am, and I had the pleasure of letting this woman know that this housekeeper is being terminated for this unacceptable behavior.
Manager 1 came in and was just speechless about the whole situation. She said in her 9+ years of working in hotels, she's never seen something like this!
Manager 2 said the same thing!
Has anyone else experienced something like this? I want to hear your story!
2023.06.10 01:54 Thewanderingmage357 Is Ravnica better Cyberpunk than Shadowrun? My hot take.
Okay, so this is a hot take in a way, but the more I think about it the more it makes sense, and the easier Ravnica becomes to understand for me. Ravnica is fantasy Cyberpunk. Not in the Neon and technology sense, although magic can do all of that. In the sense of a dystopia of corporate ownership and state corruption. Of personhood and individuality being irrelevant in the face of brands and businesses wielding total societal control.
Seriously. Cyberpunk is the Sci-Fi future counterpart of Film noir. Ravnica is supposedly based off Film Noir. But how do I see almost no one talking about this thru-line? It matches up too well to be THAT hard to miss.
Imagine the Ten Guilds having divvied up the resources of the world, and each Guild assigned a resource that they have legal right to claim any amount of that resource to sustain them, within reason as determined by the Senate. Now replace the word "Guild" with "Multinational Megacorporation." Replace the Prague Aesthetic with Los Angeles or Tokyo or New York circa 2234 AD if no corporate safeguards ever worked. Like the City-scape from Fifth Element.
The Azorious Senate is the Regulating Corporate institution that mediates the rules of doing business and operates the courts in which all other corporations have disputes settled, and that sometimes entails having other civic-minded Corporations weigh in with their own representatives. They are likewise in charge of regulation to ensure no corporation (including themselves) becomes an overreaching power that outstrips the other corporations. Picture the U.S. Government with all the representatives and lobbyists, courtrooms and regulations, but they only do Business Law. The rest?
Boros? Privatized Military. Selesnya? Renewable Energy and Ecological Applications. Orzhov? Commerce, Currency, and Cultural Advocacy(Religion). Simic? Advancements in Biochemistry and Medicine, Eugenics. Izzet? Physics and Meteorological/Geological Research, followed by Infrastructure and Energy Grids. Golgari? Waste Disposal, Recycling, State-Funded Food-Banks.
Rakdos? Labor, Mining, and Entertainment...A rather diverse portfolio, honestly, though all three of the Rakdos Corp. industries run on suffering.
The Gruul? They're the out-of-work Union members and guerilla resistance, the company that was bought out, liquidated, and all its workers discharged. And all of their members umpteenth generations later are effectively Warmongering mutants who would see the world burn for what they have lost. And every disenfranchised tough sonuvab**** who can survive meeting them tends to join the cause out of anger and hate for what this world has done to the little guy...
Dimir? Information and Media...publicly. Privately they are...well, they're about knowing everyone else's business. Enough of that info is available for a price...or a favor. The rest is kept for Dimir interests. Hence why no one can touch them, even though they have little power otherwise. Knowledge, of course, is power.
The Guildless...are the masses who do not work for these companies. And these companies ARE the government. They own damn near everything, they control all the major resources planet-wide...and everyone else tries to get by on what they can get their hands on. Housing is provided by Rakdos laborers rented out to Izzet Infrastructure Magitek Engineers who rig up whatever plumbing or power is needed, all backed by Orzhov loans. Golgari provide the equivalent of foodstamp-grade generic bread and meat-byproduct, occasionally supplemented by Selesnyan produce from one of their many ecologically minded charities, and anyone who wants more can start a business under Orzhov protection agreement and purchase luxuries from Orzhov-approved luxury vendors under similarly approved contracts. All regulated by Azorious guidelines and regulations, while the Boros keep the Peace between the Guilds on the streets and keep the Gruul from causing too much havoc. Need Medical Treatment? Your local Simic Biotechnician will see you now. Cant' pay? Sign this release and acknowledge that the experimental treatment you are about to experience has a projected 78% success likelihood. Dimir Inc. runs the Libraries and newspapers, so everyone keeps "informed," and with the information brokering they do from one Corporation to the next selling out info on the competition, they can afford to keep costs to the general public low.
And since life is cheap and short, why not take in a Rakdos show? Goodness knows with all the violent stuff we watch on television and movies in the real world, coliseum-style blood and guts entertainment paired with political satire and cultural commentary? Sounds like a winning combo? All brought to you by your local Rakdos playhouses! Get your tickets today! Remember, if you don't survuve the show, don't worry about the funeral arrangements. The Golgari are informed in advance of every performance as a courtesy, and will be at hand to clean up any remains afterward.
The Guildless survive quite literally on the handouts of the Guilds that keep them alive as a resource, not a populace. Ravnica is a cross-corporation worldwide farming operation that houses sapient free-range populace as its primary product, and then markets all secondary products to that primary product and to each other while utilizing that primary product to recruit from and produce secondary resources through... THAT is Cyberpunk AF.
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Seriously. Cyberpunk is the Sci-Fi future counterpart of Film noir. Ravnica is supposedly based off Film Noir. But how do I see almost no one talking about this thru-line? It matches up too well to be THAT hard to miss.
Imagine the Ten Guilds having divvied up the resources of the world, and each Guild assigned a resource that they have legal right to claim any amount of that resource to sustain them, within reason as determined by the Senate. Now replace the word "Guild" with "Multinational Megacorporation." Replace the Prague Aesthetic with Los Angeles or Tokyo or New York circa 2234 AD if no corporate safeguards ever worked. Like the City-scape from Fifth Element.
The Azorious Senate is the Regulating Corporate institution that mediates the rules of doing business and operates the courts in which all other corporations have disputes settled, and that sometimes entails having other civic-minded Corporations weigh in with their own representatives. They are likewise in charge of regulation to ensure no corporation (including themselves) becomes an overreaching power that outstrips the other corporations. Picture the U.S. Government with all the representatives and lobbyists, courtrooms and regulations, but they only do Business Law. The rest?
Boros? Privatized Military. Selesnya? Renewable Energy and Ecological Applications. Orzhov? Commerce, Currency, and Cultural Advocacy(Religion). Simic? Advancements in Biochemistry and Medicine, Eugenics. Izzet? Physics and Meteorological/Geological Research, followed by Infrastructure and Energy Grids. Golgari? Waste Disposal, Recycling, State-Funded Food-Banks.
Rakdos? Labor, Mining, and Entertainment...A rather diverse portfolio, honestly, though all three of the Rakdos Corp. industries run on suffering.
The Gruul? They're the out-of-work Union members and guerilla resistance, the company that was bought out, liquidated, and all its workers discharged. And all of their members umpteenth generations later are effectively Warmongering mutants who would see the world burn for what they have lost. And every disenfranchised tough sonuvab**** who can survive meeting them tends to join the cause out of anger and hate for what this world has done to the little guy...
Dimir? Information and Media...publicly. Privately they are...well, they're about knowing everyone else's business. Enough of that info is available for a price...or a favor. The rest is kept for Dimir interests. Hence why no one can touch them, even though they have little power otherwise. Knowledge, of course, is power.
The Guildless...are the masses who do not work for these companies. And these companies ARE the government. They own damn near everything, they control all the major resources planet-wide...and everyone else tries to get by on what they can get their hands on. Housing is provided by Rakdos laborers rented out to Izzet Infrastructure Magitek Engineers who rig up whatever plumbing or power is needed, all backed by Orzhov loans. Golgari provide the equivalent of foodstamp-grade generic bread and meat-byproduct, occasionally supplemented by Selesnyan produce from one of their many ecologically minded charities, and anyone who wants more can start a business under Orzhov protection agreement and purchase luxuries from Orzhov-approved luxury vendors under similarly approved contracts. All regulated by Azorious guidelines and regulations, while the Boros keep the Peace between the Guilds on the streets and keep the Gruul from causing too much havoc. Need Medical Treatment? Your local Simic Biotechnician will see you now. Cant' pay? Sign this release and acknowledge that the experimental treatment you are about to experience has a projected 78% success likelihood. Dimir Inc. runs the Libraries and newspapers, so everyone keeps "informed," and with the information brokering they do from one Corporation to the next selling out info on the competition, they can afford to keep costs to the general public low.
And since life is cheap and short, why not take in a Rakdos show? Goodness knows with all the violent stuff we watch on television and movies in the real world, coliseum-style blood and guts entertainment paired with political satire and cultural commentary? Sounds like a winning combo? All brought to you by your local Rakdos playhouses! Get your tickets today! Remember, if you don't survuve the show, don't worry about the funeral arrangements. The Golgari are informed in advance of every performance as a courtesy, and will be at hand to clean up any remains afterward.
The Guildless survive quite literally on the handouts of the Guilds that keep them alive as a resource, not a populace. Ravnica is a cross-corporation worldwide farming operation that houses sapient free-range populace as its primary product, and then markets all secondary products to that primary product and to each other while utilizing that primary product to recruit from and produce secondary resources through... THAT is Cyberpunk AF.
2023.06.10 01:29 Suraziv 22 [M4F] Michigan/Midwest/Anywhere – Looking for a deep and long-term connection with that special someone!
Hi all! As I’m getting into the routine of my first full-time job post-college, I thought it wouldn’t hurt to start looking for that special someone. So, why not try looking online as well? Leave no stone unturned, I say. The perfect person could be here and I wouldn’t have known! So, here’s a bit about me:
Background/Interests:
I graduated from college last year with degrees in both marketing and management. I work in the automotive industry. My interests include cars (duh), video games – albeit casually, tv/movies, Formula 1, American football, history, politics, finding new music, taking long drives and walks, and a lot more that I either can’t think of or are more random. I’d also love to hear what your interests are, and even if we don’t have anything in common, I’m sure there’s lots to talk about. I’m pretty open-minded! And learning about new topics or being introduced to new activities and hobbies is always fun. Love to hear new perspectives and people’s stories, as well as share my own. I believe that everyone has so much to offer.
Personality:
I'm a slight bit introverted, especially early on, but I open up to people pretty easily after getting to know them a little. I like to think that I’m kind and considerate, but nobody is perfect. I'm also a pretty good listener and a bit of a hopeless romantic, and would consider myself at least somewhat funny. I strongly value family, honesty, faithfulness, accountability, and loyalty, so you can expect me to be 100% dedicated to you and our relationship. I’m a creature of habit, so I love routines. If we end up developing a routine of calling/visiting/doing things together, then that is something I’ll take great pleasure in. I also can really geek out on things and talk your ear off if you let me.
Appearance: I’m pretty average appearance wise. I’m 5’11, so I barely missed out on the 6-foot club. I’m white, have brown eyes, and short, thick brown hair. I usually wear glasses since I have terrible eyesight. I’m in decent shape, working on trimming down a bit, but I’m around 170 lbs. I’m usually dressed super casually (hoodies, sweats, pajamas, t-shirts, shorts, etc.) unless I have somewhere to go or dressing up for work, which I’ll have to do quite frequently.
What I’m Looking for in a Partner:
Firstly, being around my age is ideal (18-25). I find it easier to connect with people similar in age since we are all in similar parts of our lives. I’m not too picky so long as you take care of yourself and carry yourself well. I’m also looking for someone who has similar values as I do. You don’t need to have anything in common with me in terms of hobbies or interests, but it always is a bonus! You also don’t need to be close to me in terms of location! I have a car and some money to spend on travel. I’d be 100% willing to for that special someone. Most of all, I look for someone I can see myself spending my future with, through thick and thin.
Conclusion:
So if you made it this far and are still interested, I’d love to hear from you! No need to go crazy on introductions, just some basic information to get started is perfectly fine! And if we get along well, I’m more than happy to exchange pictures and other social media or numbers to communicate elsewhere. I’d also prefer not to rush into things. Taking the time to really get to know someone makes things work out better in the long run in my opinion.
Look forward to hearing from you!
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Background/Interests:
I graduated from college last year with degrees in both marketing and management. I work in the automotive industry. My interests include cars (duh), video games – albeit casually, tv/movies, Formula 1, American football, history, politics, finding new music, taking long drives and walks, and a lot more that I either can’t think of or are more random. I’d also love to hear what your interests are, and even if we don’t have anything in common, I’m sure there’s lots to talk about. I’m pretty open-minded! And learning about new topics or being introduced to new activities and hobbies is always fun. Love to hear new perspectives and people’s stories, as well as share my own. I believe that everyone has so much to offer.
Personality:
I'm a slight bit introverted, especially early on, but I open up to people pretty easily after getting to know them a little. I like to think that I’m kind and considerate, but nobody is perfect. I'm also a pretty good listener and a bit of a hopeless romantic, and would consider myself at least somewhat funny. I strongly value family, honesty, faithfulness, accountability, and loyalty, so you can expect me to be 100% dedicated to you and our relationship. I’m a creature of habit, so I love routines. If we end up developing a routine of calling/visiting/doing things together, then that is something I’ll take great pleasure in. I also can really geek out on things and talk your ear off if you let me.
Appearance: I’m pretty average appearance wise. I’m 5’11, so I barely missed out on the 6-foot club. I’m white, have brown eyes, and short, thick brown hair. I usually wear glasses since I have terrible eyesight. I’m in decent shape, working on trimming down a bit, but I’m around 170 lbs. I’m usually dressed super casually (hoodies, sweats, pajamas, t-shirts, shorts, etc.) unless I have somewhere to go or dressing up for work, which I’ll have to do quite frequently.
What I’m Looking for in a Partner:
Firstly, being around my age is ideal (18-25). I find it easier to connect with people similar in age since we are all in similar parts of our lives. I’m not too picky so long as you take care of yourself and carry yourself well. I’m also looking for someone who has similar values as I do. You don’t need to have anything in common with me in terms of hobbies or interests, but it always is a bonus! You also don’t need to be close to me in terms of location! I have a car and some money to spend on travel. I’d be 100% willing to for that special someone. Most of all, I look for someone I can see myself spending my future with, through thick and thin.
Conclusion:
So if you made it this far and are still interested, I’d love to hear from you! No need to go crazy on introductions, just some basic information to get started is perfectly fine! And if we get along well, I’m more than happy to exchange pictures and other social media or numbers to communicate elsewhere. I’d also prefer not to rush into things. Taking the time to really get to know someone makes things work out better in the long run in my opinion.
Look forward to hearing from you!
2023.06.10 01:26 saeky Helltide Farming
 | I recently discovered an important detail about farming Helltide: there are specific caches that can be opened to obtain additional Aberrant Cinder. submitted by saeky to diablo4 [link] [comments] However, it's worth noting that not all of these caches will drop Cinder. The ones with a distinct reddish glow are the ones that guarantee Cinder every time. Unfortunately, I couldn't locate the Wretched Soul cache to include in the pictures. Opening these glowing caches involves a brief 2-3 second animation, but if you mistakenly open a cache without the reddish glow, it may yield nothing or only provide gold, health globes, items, and so on. Identifying the correct cache to open will greatly save time and reduce frustration during Helltide farming, which can feel like a chore due to the time restriction. Please noted that I haven't try it on lower world tier so I can not guarantee it would be the same for world tier 4. https://preview.redd.it/28355w0zt25b1.png?width=2560&format=png&auto=webp&s=110e8b674a4bf25bbda4dec28f3f32f8d4642171 |
2023.06.10 01:09 lbabinz [Amazon] Weekly Video Game Price Drops (June 2 - 9)
2023.06.10 01:06 startfresh714 Zoloft
So I was put on Zoloft about two weeks ago, for the first time.
Circumstances…
Big picture: I live with my mom, wasn’t a good relationship growing up, she is the only reason I’m not homeless and has been very helpful and supportive in the past year of me living with her and so patient with all of my anxieties, rumination, neediness, etc. There are still issues in the relationship, like I don’t feel comfortable talking to her about ways she has upset me because she doesn’t validate my feelings or take any ownership, has even gaslit me really hard. I’m in therapy, been in therapy for the past eleven years. For the past year and a half, I’ve hated being alive: not wanted to exist, been terrified of the future, not taken much joy out of life, had no goals or hobbies or interests. I’m always fearfully remembering the three months I spent “in the void” - excruciatingly empty and physically restless and bored and feeling like a body with no soul and desperate to die with non-stop suicidal ideation, severe anhedonia. The ten months that followed that weren’t great: a lighter version of the same thing. Then I had a couple of months that were lighter still, but still I’ve been miserable and not wanted to exist.
My job: I thought I was good at my job and a good employee and I thought I was the lowest level of management and did a good job motivating everyone to keep the store running well and knew I needed to be better about yielding to people senior to me when they were present and needed to talk less about my mental health struggles and be firmer anoint the refund policy and better about not smelling like cigarettes and that I had a tendency to avoid the register in favor of other tasks when there were enough other people working on the register, in my estimation. I was not a member of management, the confusion came in with being the “floor manager” when nobody senior to me was present. I came to realize I’ve actually been a really badly performing employee and a total social nuisance and micro-managerial and bossy and obsessive. I was being observed closely with a new manager coming into the store and became aware of these things and was quite certain I was about to be fired after making a HUGE mistake that cost the store a bunch of money due to having missed an email with an SOP and been doing a process wrong for months and I went to work determined to try to do everything right and fix all of the bad habits I’d become aware of and faced crippling anxiety and had a panic attack to the point of being unable to speak or even count the register in the morning and had to go home then had kind of a breakdown - went five days without showering or changing clothes without noticing, barely ate, became convinced I was a Narcissist - already been struggling with non-stop rumination that’s obsessive for the longest time now, not too long ago got so hung up on ruminating on uncertainty for so long and so intensely that I didn’t even want to speak a sentence other than “I think, therefore I am,” because it was the only one I couldn’t poke any possible holes in. Been out on short term disability for a month.
Psychiatrist said he wants me to do an IOP and get back to work or find a different job ASAP. Realized there is no job out there I wouldn’t be likely to FUCKING HATE and that I don’t like the ACTUAL responsibilities of my job, many of which I don’t even actually know how to do, that I am likely to get fired from any place I work because of boundary issues and a poor verbal filter and poor focus and other problems.
I already really didn’t want to exist and thinking I was pretty good at my job and that people there liked me okay was kind of all I had and now I’ve processed a bunch of things that people have said to me and realized that those people actually probably really dislike me and I see what a lousy employee I’ve actually been.
I feel under so much pressure to work, I feel so hopeless about treatment, I have only been keeping it together as well as I have been in part to try to appease my mom, who paid for all of my living expenses before I got a job and can’t afford to do that anymore.
My therapist has been telling me I’m full of repressed rage and I wasn’t sure if that was true or not and sometimes would feel like I was connected to rage within but then wondered if being told that was true about me was making me identify myself as such a person.
Most of the time, I feel anxious or not much of anything at all.
Anyway, I started on Zoloft, hoping for help in reducing rumination, and I’ve noticed that I have been experiencing anger more actively, though not really ruminating less. I don’t know if the meds are making me angrier or have less control of myself or if they’re putting me more in touch with what I’m always carrying around or if they’re not a factor and it’s just all the disillusionment + stress + the fact that I wish I didn’t exist.
This is why I was afraid to try a new medication: how can you suss out what is organic, what is circumstantial, and what is meds? How can you know if negative emotions are being experienced and it’s a productive thing or destructive thing?
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Circumstances…
Big picture: I live with my mom, wasn’t a good relationship growing up, she is the only reason I’m not homeless and has been very helpful and supportive in the past year of me living with her and so patient with all of my anxieties, rumination, neediness, etc. There are still issues in the relationship, like I don’t feel comfortable talking to her about ways she has upset me because she doesn’t validate my feelings or take any ownership, has even gaslit me really hard. I’m in therapy, been in therapy for the past eleven years. For the past year and a half, I’ve hated being alive: not wanted to exist, been terrified of the future, not taken much joy out of life, had no goals or hobbies or interests. I’m always fearfully remembering the three months I spent “in the void” - excruciatingly empty and physically restless and bored and feeling like a body with no soul and desperate to die with non-stop suicidal ideation, severe anhedonia. The ten months that followed that weren’t great: a lighter version of the same thing. Then I had a couple of months that were lighter still, but still I’ve been miserable and not wanted to exist.
My job: I thought I was good at my job and a good employee and I thought I was the lowest level of management and did a good job motivating everyone to keep the store running well and knew I needed to be better about yielding to people senior to me when they were present and needed to talk less about my mental health struggles and be firmer anoint the refund policy and better about not smelling like cigarettes and that I had a tendency to avoid the register in favor of other tasks when there were enough other people working on the register, in my estimation. I was not a member of management, the confusion came in with being the “floor manager” when nobody senior to me was present. I came to realize I’ve actually been a really badly performing employee and a total social nuisance and micro-managerial and bossy and obsessive. I was being observed closely with a new manager coming into the store and became aware of these things and was quite certain I was about to be fired after making a HUGE mistake that cost the store a bunch of money due to having missed an email with an SOP and been doing a process wrong for months and I went to work determined to try to do everything right and fix all of the bad habits I’d become aware of and faced crippling anxiety and had a panic attack to the point of being unable to speak or even count the register in the morning and had to go home then had kind of a breakdown - went five days without showering or changing clothes without noticing, barely ate, became convinced I was a Narcissist - already been struggling with non-stop rumination that’s obsessive for the longest time now, not too long ago got so hung up on ruminating on uncertainty for so long and so intensely that I didn’t even want to speak a sentence other than “I think, therefore I am,” because it was the only one I couldn’t poke any possible holes in. Been out on short term disability for a month.
Psychiatrist said he wants me to do an IOP and get back to work or find a different job ASAP. Realized there is no job out there I wouldn’t be likely to FUCKING HATE and that I don’t like the ACTUAL responsibilities of my job, many of which I don’t even actually know how to do, that I am likely to get fired from any place I work because of boundary issues and a poor verbal filter and poor focus and other problems.
I already really didn’t want to exist and thinking I was pretty good at my job and that people there liked me okay was kind of all I had and now I’ve processed a bunch of things that people have said to me and realized that those people actually probably really dislike me and I see what a lousy employee I’ve actually been.
I feel under so much pressure to work, I feel so hopeless about treatment, I have only been keeping it together as well as I have been in part to try to appease my mom, who paid for all of my living expenses before I got a job and can’t afford to do that anymore.
My therapist has been telling me I’m full of repressed rage and I wasn’t sure if that was true or not and sometimes would feel like I was connected to rage within but then wondered if being told that was true about me was making me identify myself as such a person.
Most of the time, I feel anxious or not much of anything at all.
Anyway, I started on Zoloft, hoping for help in reducing rumination, and I’ve noticed that I have been experiencing anger more actively, though not really ruminating less. I don’t know if the meds are making me angrier or have less control of myself or if they’re putting me more in touch with what I’m always carrying around or if they’re not a factor and it’s just all the disillusionment + stress + the fact that I wish I didn’t exist.
This is why I was afraid to try a new medication: how can you suss out what is organic, what is circumstantial, and what is meds? How can you know if negative emotions are being experienced and it’s a productive thing or destructive thing?
2023.06.10 01:06 RebeccaBunch7 DSLR camera for beginner
Any recommendations for first DSLR? Will be used purely for hobby. I want to take pictures of events happening around in my city, like photo journalism I guess. I don’t need the most expensive but I also don’t want to get something so cheap that it’s not worth it. Any recs? I’m completely new to this market
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2023.06.10 01:05 Esoteric_Innovations Type Me on These Ten Points
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Looking forward to seeing what all of you have to say on the matter.
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- I'm socially introverted, to be sure, but neither shy nor socially anxious. I have no issues talking to others or standing up to give presentations/speeches. Was shy when I was younger, but I forced myself to come out of my shell in high school and became much more brazen over time until I became who I am today.
- When it comes to things like work and serious decisions, I'm known for being pretty cold and rational about it, heavily valuing adaptability and pragmatism. A good example being that few weeks ago we had a particularly bad day at the office, and while everyone was worrying about the workload and how long it would take - I was the one who took the initiative to start going around and organizing everyone to get the work done as quickly and efficiently as possible. Under my leadership, we finished with time to spare. I was pretty proud of myself for managing to do this, and also got a genuine adrenaline rush from having more than a dozen people follow my lead without question.
- At home, I'm pretty relaxed most of the time. Most of my time is spent online - reading, listening to music, watching videos, and spending time here on Reddit. Maybe a video game from time to time, but not nearly as often when I was younger. Genre I gravitate toward the most is horror, but open to most others. On some occasions I want something simple and fun, other times I can dive deep into something esoteric and abstract (e.g. I'm a huge fan of ARGs and Analogue Horror). I do workout to stay fit and do my own cooking, the latter I find somewhat therapeutic, and have an interest in racing and caving, but otherwise I'm pretty sedentary and almost never go out. I do also like to learn, and have been learning some new things lately like picking up the Spanish language for future career prospects and also learning how to whistle just because I wanted to.
- I'm always in search of the next thing that I find interesting or exciting. On some nights I prefer to relax with some ambient music while I do some reading and browsing, on others I like to have a whole thing planned out to really enjoy an exciting evening with something new and interesting. It's entirely mood dependent on which I'm more interested in. I pretty much always go through this same cycle of finding something new and interesting (e.g. a TV Show or YouTube Series), fully exhausting it within a few days or weeks, maybe marking it down it if it's interesting enough to want to revisit in the future, and then moving onto something new.
- I tend to have a pretty resilient attitude. A mantra of mine for work is that - "I will stay until the work is done." (Barring physical injury or severe illness, I'll be there to see that it's done). A personal mantra I've had for even longer is that - "No matter what happens, I'm going to be okay." - in part because I have a lot of confidence in myself and my ability to get what I want out of this life. The belief that there's not a goddamn thing in this life that can stop me when I'm motivated and will roll over anyone or anything that gets in my way.
- Outwardly, I'm pretty confident. That's how most people have described me, with that being their first impression. I tend to be pretty quiet and unexpressive while working, but outside of that - public and at home - I have a pretty relaxed and assertive disposition, often describing this as being 'casually confident'. This could also be summed up by the fact that in virtually every picture ever taken of me since I was fourteen, I have a smirk on my face rather than a smile. In this regard, I am extremely aggressive and unapologetic about going after what I want. Like I've said to others, my attitude toward life is tantamount to - "Try and stop me." or "I'd like to see you try."
- Despite my huge ego and self-confidence, I am conscious and caring toward the feelings of others. I've also been called "sweet" before for this reason, because I would feel wrong if I didn't check in on people from time to time to make sure they're doing alright. To make sure my co-workers (at least the ones who do a good job anyway) know that they're appreciated and that it wouldn't be the same without them. As a friend of mine with depression once said, I seemed to be the only one who actually understood them and understood how it was impacting their ability to work and the like. My humor also helps with this, which is often observational and/or sarcastic. I also tend to have a righteous anger toward those who cause harm to others without a good reason and will shut people down if they try to excuse their bad behavior. More intimate partners have commented that I'm a mix of "radiating dominance" and having "a big heart."
- At the same time, I've always felt difficulty connecting with others, and people have always noted that I'm different from most people. As a kid, I related more to the adults in my life (e.g. teachers and staff) that other kids from my generation, often being told I was very mature for my age and an 'old soul'. This was also partly due to the fact that I have a rather formal way of speaking in general. As an adult now, I relate to pretty much no one and tend to simply go my own way more often than not. This is also expressed by me "liking what I like" and doing my own thing away from others. Tending not to go along with the group in most cases, and for that reason I tend to always be a perennial outsider - althought I prefer it that way, being a natural loner.
- That's also reflected in my future plans, as I never plan on having a family. When imagining the future, I never imagine it with anyone else. No family, no friends, no pets, nothing. Nothing except for me living alone, enjoying my own peace of mind away from the rest of the world and indulging in my hobbies and personal interests without interruption or interference. That's ultimately all that I want out of this life. Everything else, like work, is something I figure I might as well get the most out of while I can since I have to do it anyway (i.e. I can at least have some fun by seeing how far I can go with my career while keeping my private and professional lives completely separate with a healthy work-life balance). Like I said, I'm introverted and tend to be pretty sedentary beyond being mindful of my physical fitness and health.
- I have always kept an eye toward the future, both near and far. If it all works out, as I know it will, I should be sitting on around five million dollars or more by the age of fifty in accordance with a lucrative career in business and long-term investments in index funds. Even now in my mid-twenties, I've structured my budget to ensure that I'm saving at least a thousand dollars or more every month. I'd like to become the CEO of a large company in my late forties or early fifties through a combination of hard work and building important connections, enjoy a tenure of four to eight years, and then retire to enjoy my later years collecting a substantial annual dividend income that will ensure I never have to worry about money or expenses ever again.
Looking forward to seeing what all of you have to say on the matter.
2023.06.10 00:57 LittleBunnyxo UFO spotted in the sky
 | This morning I was riding my bike to work and spotted an object in the sky. It was really high up and wasn't moving. It kinda had a rectangular shape and didn't have anything connected to it such as a pole, so I decided to take a picture of it. When riding back home it wasn't there anymore and I haven't seen it since. submitted by LittleBunnyxo to aliens [link] [comments] In the first two pictures you can see it zoomed in from quite a distance. In the third you can see its size compared to the farms around it and how high up it was. |