My wife and I have been struggling since December 2021 being unemployed since June 2021. We burned all the savings we had and then canceled our insurance and medical aid. After that, we started selling our valuables including the washing machine, PC, printer, extra stove, etc. After that, we had to beg our parents for cash, with whom we are not on good terms. Various attempts at starting a business failed and we also lost a lot in the process of trying. Lastly, I asked an old work colleague for money. That brings out total debt to about $4500. We are now at the point where we need to sell the car, our fridge, our bed, and our laptops.
My wife is a graphic designer and I am a software developer. Since December 2021 we were unable to find new jobs. There were short freelance things we did, but the companies ghosted us after some time just when it seemed like we had made it through. It was always just enough for 1 or 2 months to keep us afloat. It's really disappointing to continuously send out tons of applications, get ignored, or receive rejections. It's also discouraging to ask our parents again since they will remind us of "what failures we are and that we are useless" and "how much they already gave us" and that "they can't give more since they need it for their retirement".
Our current job is to look for work day and night. If that is not enough we are on micro job sites in hopes of getting a small job task to do that will pay for a few necessities for us and our pets. We also started to make desserts but we can no longer afford to buy the ingredients to get off the ground.
Last month I was lucky enough to do a little freelance job that went well and we were covered for the month but this time around it's starting to look very bad. I have an assessment lined up with a remote company but even if I do get the job, it will most likely only pay out at the end of the next month. It's just very difficult to focus on the assessment when you don't know if you will be able to afford to pay rent and internet in a few days.
I have a Payoneer account since receiving money with Paypal in this part of the world does not exist. It would be only for our rent (411) and internet (78). The other necessities like food, pet food, water, fuel, and electricity we will manage on our own - as long as we have a place to stay and internet.
If anyone would be able to help us get through this tough month, we would be forever grateful.

My DS rep has been all over me for nearly a year with this 'validator' product. We are a biotech startup in phase 3 trials and I have yet to get a straight answer from him as to what the thing does and why the hell we need it.
Has anyone been down this road before that can simplify this for me?

Me and my partner have come across the Madonna-Whore Complex and believe this is the missing puzzle as to why he can no longer have a sexual relationship with me. We have been together nearly 2 years and also live together. At the beginning our sex life flourished and he was eager to share fantasises, what he likes/dislikes etc. he had an operation late into his (26yrs), and this could have also impacted why he struggled with not having much sexual experience, due to pain.
Anyway, alongside that he resorted to porn as, he wasn’t being sexually active because it would hurt. Since that is resolved and he is pain free, he also stated that once he is in love, he cannot separate the two feelings of love and sex. As I said, at the beginning we flourished and was sexually active in ways we could despite when he HAD problems with his downstairs area, but once and as he stated, I fell in love with you, I respect you, and my desire became less and less because I see you as my wife, my soulmate, and I respect you and don’t want to disrespect you, because he categorising the two “being a whore in the bedroom and then a saint of a girlfriend” if that makes sense… he thinks that being sexually active, it’s because he doesn’t respect the individual, and does not have any emotional feelings towards them.
So, when his feelings grew massively for me, he saw it as a wrongdoing wanting to be sexually active with me, because he loves and respects me. Just wondered if anyone else has gone through this and what steps they took to save their relationship? WE ARE DESPERATE. We want children, marriage, everything, but this is the only thing stopping us moving forward. He feels attraction towards me, but it makes him feel uncomfortable and disrespectful towards me if any sexual acts are performed with me. Hope someone can help. We have seen a couple of sex therapists, but never uncovered the theory Madonna Whore-Complex that fits him to a T. It was a lightbulb moment and we’ve uncovered this issue as being the reason, and we want help.

Come and get yours you clucka mother fucker sucka foos. i tried to push the button so you can’t post without applying, but on second thought I may have lost a menu on my way here. I was hoping to suggest some of you inquire as to my interest in one particular article be drafted with perhaps some conditional indication for instead another. So, i suppose you have the right to gather. You alone, perhaps- but careful: I have noted that 2 or 3 humans is quite enough to assert subjectively a circumstance of belonging in accord with the lost. i hadn’t actually planned to give myself what seemed the pagan inheritance of an experience of homelessness. Although the facts of the circumstances are debatable, it was only once that the version of homelessness undertaken matched my original intention. For example, it is perhaps a proper enough excuse to say a difficult and pregnant early schizophrenic and therefor high school drop-out could have developed resource enough to match me in struggling. The shade of involition makes different people out of us dorks than it does the thugs. I maintain that I have never been guilty of trying to help, but the fact of time stolen from me is indisputably simple to balance with my own period for training. I suppose I am fairly traditional when it comes to my sources, besides which I didn’t pursue much science at the university level. The eternal junior transfer, I managed to fly off the handle over the summer before classes started and such a factor almost didn’t belong to me and my lifestyle. As I figure it, I had played my hand perfectly and genuinely didn’t deserve to have my relatively adult life co-opted by another round of public education. I had vague plans I could have pulled off to remain homeless while I attended and that’s my excuse for being in the area over the summertime before classes were starting. I had actually moved out on my own for four and a half months since I was 19 and attending community college as an alternative to high school. The resume is extensive. Don’t be fooled. Nothing is about to happen. I was a creature of the Internet through video gaming and perhaps user customization, but I have kept my distance from seeking truth of another over these years, hoping to achieve a unique product. i studied the catalogue and spent time in the field testing my reality. Although I have narrowed things down by now, the fact is still how little to no comparison is indicated between points in my life. In any case, whatever experience I‘ve had of a schizophrenic nature has been extremely limited and educational. It, too, has been distinct and again my internal experience has been incomparable to others, eventually unheard of by its characteristics , and- more to the point: I could not begin to tackle the project of expressing the contents of my life of passing thoughts. As it was once explained to me… I AM rich. For now, I will be working on a book after some years of strict poetry. Many years of impeccable discipline with even the utility and size of the pages in my journal, and only that after preliminary years scavenging for my materials as inclined.

Jacob chasler looked at around his surroundings. Around him the great port of azur lane was burning - all of the buildings that were once the home of the kansen were burning - their bodies strewn across the ground, bloodied and beaten from the attack.
As jacob looked down, he saw that in his arms was someones body - a woman with medium length white-silver hair, two small angel wings on her head, two larger wings on her back, a stylized trench coat, and a royal navy pin on the left side of her chest - to her side layed a bow that looked like two angels wings held together in the middle with a red gem.
As jacob examines her, he see's her mouth move as if to say something, but nothing comes out - but somehow it still registers, and he nods his head, only for her to finally loose her strength and pass on.
Jacob, cries out in soundless anguish as she passed, before getting up and taking her bow. As jacob finally looks up for the first time he see's two humanoid sirens - both with long silver hair and yellow eyes, but still with major differences - one wore a strange black night gown with black ears and possesed black and yellow tentacles, and observed everything with a strange enjoying-indifference - while the other wore a short sailors uniform and had with her rigging that took a form similar to that of a hammerhead shark and wore a look of glee at the destruction they wrought.
The moment jacob lays eyes on them, he yells out as he draws the bow and launches an arrow that transforms into a cannon shell mid-air. Its all for nought though, as it impacts a shield that the tentacled one had manifested. As jacob goes to draw another shot, the one with the hammerhead rigging aims her cannons and fires - the last thing jacob see's is the cannon shells speed towards him - impacting - and his vision is engulfed in flame...

"AAH" jacob yells out as he falls out of his bed - the scenes from his dream still fresh in his mind. Jacob pats himself, checking for anything strange, only finding the stitching from the area where the shrapnel was removed and how he was drenched in sweat.
After jacob calmed down, he goes to look at his alarm clock, and see's it's only been around 3 hours since he fell asleep.
"Well aint that just great" jacob mumbles. To himself.
After sitting down for a few moments, jacob goes to his bag and fishes out a spare uniform he had, and proceeds to got to the bathroom he had in his living quarters, so he can clean himself.
After cleaning himself, in unfortunately cold water, and getting dressed - jacob proceeds to the office in the conference building, so he can get an early start on the paperwork that was remaining.
As he's walking through the still damaged port, he notices a strange light in one of the piles of rubble. As he goes to take a closer look in the rubble he suddenly realizes - with near horror - what the object is.
"A wisdom cube?!" He nearly shouts out. After digging through a small amount of rubble, jacob finally is able to retrieve the glowing light blue cube. After he examines the cube and thankfully finds that there were no cracks in it - jacob puts into his bag and proceeds back on his course to the office.
When jacob was finally reaches the office, he notices that the light was on, and that there was one figure inside. He recognized the figure as belonging to Z23, one of the kansen that met him when he arrived in the port the previous day.
As jacob walks in, he notices that Z23 doesnt even realize that he's there, while she's reviewing one if the piles of paper work that they've been working on. After walking closer towards her - jacob finally speaks to her.
"Z23?" Jacob says. Immediately as he says that Z23 jumps up, wide eyed and lets out a small yelp. "C-commander c-chasler what are you doing here?" she says as she goes to sit back down.
"Well i was going to get an early start on the paperwork, but something important has come up." He says as he reaches into his bag and pulls out the stray wisdom cube he had found.
"T-thats-" Z23 begins, "Where did you find that?" She finishes saying after taking a few moments to compose herself.
"I found it in one of the rubble piles heading over here from my building and was planning to ask one of you where i can find a cube tech to manifest it in the morning" jacob says as Z23 takes all it in.
"Commander, you'll need to go to akashi and yuubari in order to have the cube Manifested," Z23 says, "but even then where could it have come from?"she asks out loud.
"Dont kansen revert to their cube state when they're heavily damaged?" jacob asks Z23 as she shakes her head.
"Only in the most desperate of circumstances, but even then, the process takes around 8 minutes to complete and even then, we'd be dead in most circumstances before we could go into preservation mode" Z23 responds to jacob. After Z23 said that, jacob looks at the wisdom cube in his hand with a newfound suspicion.
"So chances are, that this cube isnt from one of ours" jacob says, at that Z23 nods. "Most likely commander chasler" Z23 continues "Our best odds are to send this cube to yuubari and akashi to have it analyzed, and if its deemed a threat, they will have it destroyed". She finishes
As jacob contemplates what he should do with cube, he suddenly feels something emanate from the cube into him. It isnt a message or an image, only emotions - the strongest of which are fear, acceptance and resignation. These emotions are strong enough to put jacob into a momentary daze before his vision refocuses - he then looks at Z23 and gives his response.
"This cube is already resonated to humanity. we'll have it manifest, and if its a threat, i trust that you'll put it down" jacob finishes - Z23 looks up at him looking as if wanting to ask a question, but before she could, jacob spoke.
"Z23, While ive only been only base for roughly 17 hours, and want to have a good working relationship with you all - i believe that having this cube manifest will only bring benefits instead of having it destroyed" jacob says. Z23 still looks like she wants to say something but stops herself, after a few moments, jacob speaks up again, "well now that we have that sorted out, lets go back to doing the paper work", Z23 nods at this as jacob goes to his desk and begins to review and sign the papers on his desk.
They went on like this until the sun was fully in the sky - at some point being joined by kuybyshev and theseus - who brought them food when they told her they didnt eat - and continued with the paperwork - approving re-construction budgets, resource allocation, and invoices from the various damaged dorms of the factions.
Once they were mostly done with the paper work in the afternoon, jacob asked the three of them where yuubari and akashi were located at and went to them.
As he approached he could hear an explosion close to him - this caused jacob to start running towards its source inorder to figure what the cause of it had been. When jacob reached the source of the explosion he found two fairly short woman - one with fox ears, black hair, ligjt red eyes, and wearing a green and yellow kimono - while the other had green hair, golden eyes, and was wearing an oversized labcoat with various tools coming out of the sleeves. As while jacob was getting closer, he could hear them talking to each other.
"Nya i told ya it wouldnt work!" The green haired one said in annoyed tone. The one with black hair just turned her head at that.
"Why shouldnt it work, all of our tests said it would work," she said "and besides nothing is learned without atleast experimenting on it first" she finished.
As jacob got closer to them, he could finally see what they were talking about - in a small crater layed a downed but still intact siren plane, which it seemed that the two of them had opened up and were experimenting on it.
After getting walking to a point where he was only around 8 feet away, jacob started talking. "Excuse me, are you two, mrs. Yuubari and akashi?" He asked. At his words both of them swiveld their heads towards him, and began looking at him.
"Nya, thats us" the green haired one (who jacob figured is akashi at this point) said. "Abd are you the new commander?" Yuubari said.
"Yes, i am. Its nice to meet the both of you, but this meeting is to deal with something of decent importance" he said as he pulled out the wisdom cube from his hand. As jacob is pulling out, he notices how both akashi and yuubari go wide-eyed and stare at it. After this jacob continues speaking.
"I found this cube sitting in the rubble near the conference building. From what me and Z23 could tell, this is an unknown - but attuned cube - so i decided that our best course of action would be to have it manifested" jacob finishes
After that, both akashi and yuubari both get out of the daze they were in, and yuubari gives a sharp glance at jacob. "Are you certain that is wise commander?" She asks "activating an unknown cube may bring unfortunate side effects - the sirens have tried this tactic before, and it was too late before we realized what had truly transpired" yuubari says as a supposed dark memory passes through her face, before shaking it away. Akashi was nodding nearly the entire time while yuubari was speaking. Still jacob was determind.
"I am quite certain that this cube is not thr case ms. Yuubari" jacob replies "from what ive read, the false cubes sent from the sirens didnt resonate well with people, with some even saying that the feeling they got from it was of malicous intent" he continues "this cube is not like that, when it resonated for a short amount of time, the emotions that i felt were of fear and acceptance, not that of malice and anger - so it is my belief that we have this cube manifested, and if it turns out to be a mole, we have it put down - but if turns out to be something else, then we couldve made a new ally" jacob finally finishes.
After jacobs almost-speech, both yuubari and akashi take on a pensive look, before nodding at each. After a few moments akashi responds for them.
"Nya, we'll do it commander" she says before she continues "but just to be safe can we have someone else with us, nya?" She finishes.
At this jacob nods, before putting the cube into yuubari's hand "of course - ill try to send kuybyshev to protect you - one last thing though," he says, causing both girls to look at him, "i want to be there when the cube completely manifests." At this both girls look at each other again before responding
"Nya, alright commander" akashi says as both her and yuubari begin packing up their tools and heading back to their R&D building.
After a few moments of just standing there, with no one else around besides him - jacob proceeds to head back to the conference room to resume filling out the paper work they had.

9 hours after having sent kuybyshev to help with akashi and yuubari, and after 2 more hours of late night paper work, jacob is graced by a call to his office phone. As he picks up he hears the voice of yuubari on the other end.
"Commander, the cube is ready for manifestation" she said, at this jacob quickly responds "alright, im on my way", as he gets up from his desk.
He exits conference building and surprisingly finds that a vast majority of the paths leading to and from the base had been mostly cleared of rubble, with just the errant bits here and there. As he continues looking at the streets while walking, he notices small yellow birds who were seemingly cleaning the paths of their debris.
"Huh" is all jacob gets out as he continues on his way, "Next they'll have sentient cat generals" he mused as he finally reaches the R&D building.
After entering the building, and spotting kuybyshev who was waiting for his arrival, both of them entered the cube engineering room, where both akashi and yuubari were at along with the cube which was hooked up to various wires and conduits.
Yuubari looks at the commander with a questioning gaze, as she holds up a button which was wired to the machinery, "Would you like to do the honors commander?" She asks while offering The button.
Jacob gently takes the button out her hand and presses it, beginning the manifestation process. As the cube begins to manifest, the platform it was on lowers, and the various cables and conduits that it was hooked up to, disconnect as it begins to rise into the air and plspin ever faster.
After spinning for about 15 seconds, the cubes light begins to intensify, making all of the occupants in the room to cover their eyes as the light and the cubes speed reaches a crescendo, until it flashes.
After the light fades, and they are able to see once again - the occupants of the room stare at the female form in the center of the room.
The figure had medium length silver-ish white hair, amethyst eyes, and had two small angel like wings protruding from her head - she wore a long black trench coat, dark pants, and boots, and protruding from her lower back was 2 larger angel wings.
As they were inspecting her, the figure puts a hand to her chest and bows, while keeping her head aimed towards the occupants - specifically aiming for jacob, as she spoke.
"Light cruiser HMS daedalus of the danae class at your service" she says before speaking up again "Now what battlefield have you summoned to. To bring me from beyond existence?" She asks as she retakes a normal standing postition.
"My name is Commander jacob chasler" he automatically responds "and this war has all of humanity on the line. At that daedalus gives him a light smile before responding
"Very well them, i will be your sword and your shield in this war for humanity, lord commander chasler" she says as she gives one last bow.
After that, both akashi and yuubari swarmed daedalus with questions, about this or that, until eventually daedalus was sent to the royal navy dorms, and jacob went back to his room, before laying on his bed and saying one thing
"What a day" and drifts off into the peaceful embrace of sleep.

elsewhere
Observer Alpha is reviewing all the new data from they had obtained - going through what they had done during the day - until she finds the data about the wisdom cube that jacob had found and manifested.
This causes observer to once again furiously write down new notes about the commander and what he had done.
"This anomaly is strange" she mused once more "Stranger than even that other anomaly who got three kansen pregnant." she spoke outloud, before putting back on a face a neutrality.
She gazes over at the capsule on the other side of room, marked with the letter F. She slightly smiles as she gazes at it before returning to her data.
"Soon commander, your reckoning will come" she says "and with it, we will be free".

I am a woman in my mid 30s. I've never had a child but I have been sexually active. In the past I've used the nuva ring, patch, and hormonal IUD. I recently decided I wanted to go off of hormonal birth so I wanted to see about using a diaphragm. I went to get sized and it hurt like crazy. I was told that I am "too small" for a diaphragm.
Here's the thing: I come from a family of women who literally pop out babies in 3 pushes. No women in my family have ever needed any pain killers or had any complications during birth. I have, however, had a lot of awful experience with different GYNs, that have been very painful and so I tense up a lot.
Is it possible that I am genuinely "too small" for a diaphragm? What does that mean if I ever want kids? What options do I have for non-hormonal BC?

My advice is, value yourselves and what you can bring to the relationship.
Within the gay kink/ fetish/ leather community there is. a huge red flag good doms will avoid.
"I have no limits, use me anyway you want." the only doms that will want that is an abusive asshole and over the decades I've heard some horror stories about what happens with those guys.
The same thing happens with vanilla bottoms, they forget their value and let bad tops wreck their self esteem and lives. I've seen chem sex addiction, HIV infections (pre and post prep), and other dangerous behaviors, because they don't value themselves as they chase after that dick.
Good tops and doms want a partner, that is a bottom. We don't want somebody that does not respect themselves... Know your value boys and all of the unique things you can bring to a relationship.... stop being some dickheads doormat or future victim.

Backstory: I’m a single mom of two boys (7&9). I met my partner about years ago on my first and only ever Tinder date. I was a SAHM prior to getting divorced (2020) and started working at a daycare during. I don’t have a lot of money and never have. My ex-husband was in the military so I got used to scrimping by.
This brings in my partner. He’s a criminal defense attorney and possibly the best in our area. He knows it and often goes on elitist rants when he feels “disrespected” by other attorneys or clients. I just sit and listen because he is very quick to turn any discussion into an argument.
He really is a sweet guy. He has provided for me and my boys in ways I never thought possible. The kids love him to bits and call him their stepdad though we have no plans on getting married. He’s funny and extremely smart. But most of all, I love him.
Which brings us to tonight.
We’ve always had a bit of an issue with trust in our relationship. I’ve caught him texting other women very explicitly but I let him explain it away. My ex did the same so I normalized it. Last July, my partner got a new assistant. She’s fantastic and younger than us (27F) and also married. He’s had other assistants before so I saw no cause for concern. Needless to say, that was dumb of me. They’ve gotten much closer and have began to say “I love you” to one another. I only know this because I accidentally saw her message to him when we were watching TikToks.
Now, I had warned him about her falling for him because I had that gut instinct right off the bat. He swore it would never happen and reassured me. She is constantly texting him and he feels the need to answer because “she is the best assistant in the area and she needs to feel connected to me so she does a better job”. He justifies by claiming “I bring home the money so whatever I need to do shouldn’t be questioned”.
He has bought me a lot. A house, a car, helping me through college, etc. So part of me feels like he’s right. I’m benefiting so I should stay quiet. However, the other side of me is begging him for love and he doesn’t care. Tonight it came to a head. I had written him a letter explaining all of my hurt and frustration at feeling like the other woman between them. He read it and didn’t bat an eye. He told me I need to accept their relationship because of what I gain. I let him know I could care less about physical objects and material things, all I want is his friendship and love. He told me no, that I get enough.
I lost it. I started almost yelling because I felt so unheard. He just wasn’t getting it, I don’t want money. I want him. He told me that if I made him pick between me or his job and her, he’d pick them. I asked him to please leave and he did.
I regret it now. I miss him and want him back home but I’m not sure it’s worth my mental and emotional well-being.
TLDR: partner has a relationship with his assistant and expects me to accept it because he pays for everything. I just want him and his love.

I have struggled with my mental health for my entire life because I’m more or less one of the worst people to have ever existed and I have tried everything to get better. I have seen therapists and psychiatrists, I have taken medication, I have seen self-improvement coaches, I have tried to open up to people and nothing ever works. I have sat in the sun, I have travelled, I have journaled, I have video journaled, I have worked out, I have done all the things. I feel like what everybody fails to understand is that none of these things make an actual difference when the problem lies with who you are fundamentally. I just wish I were a likeable and lovable person and that’s clearly impossible. And before anyone tells me that I have to work on myself in order to become likeable and lovable, I just want to say that this is all I have ever tried to do, with therapy, with medication, with the coaches, etc. Nobody will ever like me, love me, invite me to a party, ask me if I’m available after school/work to have a drink, seek my presence, tell me I’m pretty, tell me I’m enjoyable to be around. I will never get a happy birthday text. I will never have anyone who cares for me. And I’m just fucking tired of the « it gets better » narrative. Because it does not, it really does not. The sadness is forever. I have waited long enough for things to change, I have made enough efforts, I will not wait any longer.
I am in so much pain, it’s unbearable. It hurts to wake up everyday and have no one even acknowledge my existence. And I feel like none of the therapists/psychiatrists I have seen acknowledge my pain. For them it’s like I should keep living, and for what? Maybe for other people life is this sacred gift that we should cherish or whatever but not for me. There is absolutely no reason I should be here and no reason why I have been here for that long. It’s not this was a temporary problem, I have struggled with this all my life.
I have everything planned, I leaving in two weeks. Nobody cares, nobody ever has and nobody ever will. My body will probably already be rotten by the time anyone spares me a thought.
Please no Jesus loves you bullshit. If Jesus loved me I think he would have made it clearer.

I just need to vent about the BS my brain is putting me through, because I feel absolutely bat-shit crazy bananas.
So:
I finished university 2,5 years ago, after which I had no strength to do anything for almost six months. My university was absolute hell, so much so that it revealed my long-hidden anxiety.
My major isn't relevant except for the fact that nobody can finish it without cheating sometimes. The place is infamous for it. I managed by learning to trade knowledge and effort and surrounding myself with a small group of social shields.
I had thought that it was just my university that was absolutely shit and inhumane. It was. But I also thought my anxiety would go away once I finished it. It didn't.
I work remotely for a company for 2 years now. I've confirmed that the amount of work my university expected was unreasonable - my 6-people team doesn't do as much in a month as was exepcted from every single student every week.
I should be happy. The work is easy. I'm one of the most knowledgeable and outspoken members of the team.
I feel more anxious than ever.
Whenever I have to write to anyone outside of the team, I get stuck. My brain oscillates between freezing and processing every possible scenario ever.
When someone writes to me, it's even worse. My chest hurts, blood boils, I struggle to breathe and my legs are trying to move on their own. I cannot respond to the message, despite knowing the answer. I have to go away and pace or dance for a while before the panick goes down enough to be physically able to write back. And then I go away again, before they can respond too, because the panick did not end.
I sometimes tell my team members to write for me because "I cannot deal with this person." They do not understand but often do it for me. I often struggle with asking my teammates for help and spend way too much time trying to do things myself (we agreed on a 1 hour limit of being stuck before asking, I sometimes go a few days).
How does it fit with me being outspoken? I can speak normally on calls and irl meetings. It's easier on calls than irl. The problem is, I struggle with arranging calls as well.
The problem did not start during university or work, but they both made it worse. I always had trouble speaking up and making calls and I've been practicing for years, but then university happened and I got the physical symptoms for the first time. Now during work the symptoms are increasing in frequency and intensity. They are also spilling over to personal life.
I don't think anh advice is needed. I know I need to see a professional, I just struggle with making the appointment. I normally wouldn't even be posting this, only lurk in the background, read the subreddit and maybe comment sometimes, but writing this gave me an excuse not to read what the complete stranger working at my company wrote to me and now my blood dropped just below boiling point.
So, thank you for coming to my TedTalk creating this space where I can vent about this BS in a socially acceptable way.
Have a good week, everyone.

My (22F) husband (23M) has not been that nice to me. Over the last few weeks, he'll snap at me often or just talk back sort of aggressively if I try to say something to him or ask him a question. I started to get the feeling that I just annoy him, so I tried asking him questions, but then he gets annoyed at me for asking questions. Such as he'll respond to something I say with a sort of annoyed-sounding tone, I will tell him he sounded a little annoyed or aggressive and if I'd upset him, he'll roll his eyes and say something like: "no, can you get that through your head? I'm not upset with you?" so I just feel confused.
I have Aspergers, so I do miss certain things and I prefer to not guess why someone's tone sounded off.
Finally, yesterday, we had a conversation because after weeks of trying to tell him how I feel and he either shuts me down or apologizes and then the next day acts the same, I told him I would go to my family's for a bit. He finally told me that I talk to much, that I repeat things too much (when I get excited, I repeat things, maybe over the course of hours I'll bring up the same thing five times or something because it's exciting and I'm thinking about it a lot), and that I try to force conversation when he obviously (not to me) doesn't feel like having a conversation. He told me that he will try harder to communicate better and not be so snappy, and for me, my part in not starting arguments, is that I can just "stop talking so much." This really hurt my feelings. I wish instead of being passive aggressive all the time, if he didn't feel like talking, he'd just say that kindly in the moment. I didn't understand how I'd been annoying him so much and it has been hurting my feelings a lot and making me feel confused.
He says he will say things more bluntly from now on (like if he doesn't feel like talking), but I don't understand why when we've had these conversations so much in the past, he doesn't just do that now. Does he really think responding shortly and sounding annoyed will make me understand that he just wants to sit in silence? I do understand that it means he doesn't want to talk, but I always think it's because I've annoyed him. It seems like merely trying to start a conversation with him or asking him a question is enough to annoy him.
I'm not sure what to do. I feel like my husband is just being mean. As my husband, I would have hoped he could just tell me I'm talking too much or something, instead of constantly snapping at me and sounding passive aggressive.

Jacob chasler looked at around his surroundings. Around him the great port of azur lane was burning - all of the buildings that were once the home of the kansen were burning - their bodies strewn across the ground, bloodied and beaten from the attack.
As jacob looked down, he saw that in his arms was someones body - a woman with medium length white-silver hair, two small angel wings on her head, two larger wings on her back, a stylized trench coat, and a royal navy pin on the left side of her chest - to her side layed a bow that looked like two angels wings held together in the middle with a red gem.
As jacob examines her, he see's her mouth move as if to say something, but nothing comes out - but somehow it still registers, and he nods his head, only for her to finally loose her strength and pass on.
Jacob, cries out in soundless anguish as she passed, before getting up and taking her bow. As jacob finally looks up for the first time he see's two humanoid sirens - both with long silver hair and yellow eyes, but still with major differences - one wore a strange black night gown with black ears and possesed black and yellow tentacles, and observed everything with a strange enjoying-indifference - while the other wore a short sailors uniform and had with her rigging that took a form similar to that of a hammerhead shark and wore a look of glee at the destruction they wrought.
The moment jacob lays eyes on them, he yells out as he draws the bow and launches an arrow that transforms into a cannon shell mid-air. Its all for nought though, as it impacts a shield that the tentacled one had manifested. As jacob goes to draw another shot, the one with the hammerhead rigging aims her cannons and fires - the last thing jacob see's is the cannon shells speed towards him - impacting - and his vision is engulfed in flame...

"AAH" jacob yells out as he falls out of his bed - the scenes from his dream still fresh in his mind. Jacob pats himself, checking for anything strange, only finding the stitching from the area where the shrapnel was removed and how he was drenched in sweat.
After jacob calmed down, he goes to look at his alarm clock, and see's it's only been around 3 hours since he fell asleep.
"Well aint that just great" jacob mumbles. To himself.
After sitting down for a few moments, jacob goes to his bag and fishes out a spare uniform he had, and proceeds to got to the bathroom he had in his living quarters, so he can clean himself.
After cleaning himself, in unfortunately cold water, and getting dressed - jacob proceeds to the office in the conference building, so he can get an early start on the paperwork that was remaining.
As he's walking through the still damaged port, he notices a strange light in one of the piles of rubble. As he goes to take a closer look in the rubble he suddenly realizes - with near horror - what the object is.
"A wisdom cube?!" He nearly shouts out. After digging through a small amount of rubble, jacob finally is able to retrieve the glowing light blue cube. After he examines the cube and thankfully finds that there were no cracks in it - jacob puts into his bag and proceeds back on his course to the office.
When jacob was finally reaches the office, he notices that the light was on, and that there was one figure inside. He recognized the figure as belonging to Z23, one of the kansen that met him when he arrived in the port the previous day.
As jacob walks in, he notices that Z23 doesnt even realize that he's there, while she's reviewing one if the piles of paper work that they've been working on. After walking closer towards her - jacob finally speaks to her.
"Z23?" Jacob says. Immediately as he says that Z23 jumps up, wide eyed and lets out a small yelp. "C-commander c-chasler what are you doing here?" she says as she goes to sit back down.
"Well i was going to get an early start on the paperwork, but something important has come up." He says as he reaches into his bag and pulls out the stray wisdom cube he had found.
"T-thats-" Z23 begins, "Where did you find that?" She finishes saying after taking a few moments to compose herself.
"I found it in one of the rubble piles heading over here from my building and was planning to ask one of you where i can find a cube tech to manifest it in the morning" jacob says as Z23 takes all it in.
"Commander, you'll need to go to akashi and yuubari in order to have the cube Manifested," Z23 says, "but even then where could it have come from?"she asks out loud.
"Dont kansen revert to their cube state when they're heavily damaged?" jacob asks Z23 as she shakes her head.
"Only in the most desperate of circumstances, but even then, the process takes around 8 minutes to complete and even then, we'd be dead in most circumstances before we could go into preservation mode" Z23 responds to jacob. After Z23 said that, jacob looks at the wisdom cube in his hand with a newfound suspicion.
"So chances are, that this cube isnt from one of ours" jacob says, at that Z23 nods. "Most likely commander chasler" Z23 continues "Our best odds are to send this cube to yuubari and akashi to have it analyzed, and if its deemed a threat, they will have it destroyed". She finishes
As jacob contemplates what he should do with cube, he suddenly feels something emanate from the cube into him. It isnt a message or an image, only emotions - the strongest of which are fear, acceptance and resignation. These emotions are strong enough to put jacob into a momentary daze before his vision refocuses - he then looks at Z23 and gives his response.
"This cube is already resonated to humanity. we'll have it manifest, and if its a threat, i trust that you'll put it down" jacob finishes - Z23 looks up at him looking as if wanting to ask a question, but before she could, jacob spoke.
"Z23, While ive only been only base for roughly 17 hours, and want to have a good working relationship with you all - i believe that having this cube manifest will only bring benefits instead of having it destroyed" jacob says. Z23 still looks like she wants to say something but stops herself, after a few moments, jacob speaks up again, "well now that we have that sorted out, lets go back to doing the paper work", Z23 nods at this as jacob goes to his desk and begins to review and sign the papers on his desk.
They went on like this until the sun was fully in the sky - at some point being joined by kuybyshev and theseus - who brought them food when they told her they didnt eat - and continued with the paperwork - approving re-construction budgets, resource allocation, and invoices from the various damaged dorms of the factions.
Once they were mostly done with the paper work in the afternoon, jacob asked the three of them where yuubari and akashi were located at and went to them.
As he approached he could hear an explosion close to him - this caused jacob to start running towards its source inorder to figure what the cause of it had been. When jacob reached the source of the explosion he found two fairly short woman - one with fox ears, black hair, ligjt red eyes, and wearing a green and yellow kimono - while the other had green hair, golden eyes, and was wearing an oversized labcoat with various tools coming out of the sleeves. As while jacob was getting closer, he could hear them talking to each other.
"Nya i told ya it wouldnt work!" The green haired one said in annoyed tone. The one with black hair just turned her head at that.
"Why shouldnt it work, all of our tests said it would work," she said "and besides nothing is learned without atleast experimenting on it first" she finished.
As jacob got closer to them, he could finally see what they were talking about - in a small crater layed a downed but still intact siren plane, which it seemed that the two of them had opened up and were experimenting on it.
After getting walking to a point where he was only around 8 feet away, jacob started talking. "Excuse me, are you two, mrs. Yuubari and akashi?" He asked. At his words both of them swiveld their heads towards him, and began looking at him.
"Nya, thats us" the green haired one (who jacob figured is akashi at this point) said. "Abd are you the new commander?" Yuubari said.
"Yes, i am. Its nice to meet the both of you, but this meeting is to deal with something of decent importance" he said as he pulled out the wisdom cube from his hand. As jacob is pulling out, he notices how both akashi and yuubari go wide-eyed and stare at it. After this jacob continues speaking.
"I found this cube sitting in the rubble near the conference building. From what me and Z23 could tell, this is an unknown - but attuned cube - so i decided that our best course of action would be to have it manifested" jacob finishes
After that, both akashi and yuubari both get out of the daze they were in, and yuubari gives a sharp glance at jacob. "Are you certain that is wise commander?" She asks "activating an unknown cube may bring unfortunate side effects - the sirens have tried this tactic before, and it was too late before we realized what had truly transpired" yuubari says as a supposed dark memory passes through her face, before shaking it away. Akashi was nodding nearly the entire time while yuubari was speaking. Still jacob was determind.
"I am quite certain that this cube is not thr case ms. Yuubari" jacob replies "from what ive read, the false cubes sent from the sirens didnt resonate well with people, with some even saying that the feeling they got from it was of malicous intent" he continues "this cube is not like that, when it resonated for a short amount of time, the emotions that i felt were of fear and acceptance, not that of malice and anger - so it is my belief that we have this cube manifested, and if it turns out to be a mole, we have it put down - but if turns out to be something else, then we couldve made a new ally" jacob finally finishes.
After jacobs almost-speech, both yuubari and akashi take on a pensive look, before nodding at each. After a few moments akashi responds for them.
"Nya, we'll do it commander" she says before she continues "but just to be safe can we have someone else with us, nya?" She finishes.
At this jacob nods, before putting the cube into yuubari's hand "of course - ill try to send kuybyshev to protect you - one last thing though," he says, causing both girls to look at him, "i want to be there when the cube completely manifests." At this both girls look at each other again before responding
"Nya, alright commander" akashi says as both her and yuubari begin packing up their tools and heading back to their R&D building.
After a few moments of just standing there, with no one else around besides him - jacob proceeds to head back to the conference room to resume filling out the paper work they had.

9 hours after having sent kuybyshev to help with akashi and yuubari, and after 2 more hours of late night paper work, jacob is graced by a call to his office phone. As he picks up he hears the voice of yuubari on the other end.
"Commander, the cube is ready for manifestation" she said, at this jacob quickly responds "alright, im on my way", as he gets up from his desk.
He exits conference building and surprisingly finds that a vast majority of the paths leading to and from the base had been mostly cleared of rubble, with just the errant bits here and there. As he continues looking at the streets while walking, he notices small yellow birds who were seemingly cleaning the paths of their debris.
"Huh" is all jacob gets out as he continues on his way, "Next they'll have sentient cat generals" he mused as he finally reaches the R&D building.
After entering the building, and spotting kuybyshev who was waiting for his arrival, both of them entered the cube engineering room, where both akashi and yuubari were at along with the cube which was hooked up to various wires and conduits.
Yuubari looks at the commander with a questioning gaze, as she holds up a button which was wired to the machinery, "Would you like to do the honors commander?" She asks while offering The button.
Jacob gently takes the button out her hand and presses it, beginning the manifestation process. As the cube begins to manifest, the platform it was on lowers, and the various cables and conduits that it was hooked up to, disconnect as it begins to rise into the air and plspin ever faster.
After spinning for about 15 seconds, the cubes light begins to intensify, making all of the occupants in the room to cover their eyes as the light and the cubes speed reaches a crescendo, until it flashes.
After the light fades, and they are able to see once again - the occupants of the room stare at the female form in the center of the room.
The figure had medium length silver-ish white hair, amethyst eyes, and had two small angel like wings protruding from her head - she wore a long black trench coat, dark pants, and boots, and protruding from her lower back was 2 larger angel wings.
As they were inspecting her, the figure puts a hand to her chest and bows, while keeping her head aimed towards the occupants - specifically aiming for jacob, as she spoke.
"Light cruiser HMS daedalus of the danae class at your service" she says before speaking up again "Now what battlefield have you summoned to. To bring me from beyond existence?" She asks as she retakes a normal standing postition.
"My name is Commander jacob chasler" he automatically responds "and this war has all of humanity on the line. At that daedalus gives him a light smile before responding
"Very well them, i will be your sword and your shield in this war for humanity, lord commander chasler" she says as she gives one last bow.
After that, both akashi and yuubari swarmed daedalus with questions, about this or that, until eventually daedalus was sent to the royal navy dorms, and jacob went back to his room, before laying on his bed and saying one thing
"What a day" and drifts off into the peaceful embrace of sleep.

elsewhere
Observer Alpha is reviewing all the new data from they had obtained - going through what they had done during the day - until she finds the data about the wisdom cube that jacob had found and manifested.
This causes observer to once again furiously write down new notes about the commander and what he had done.
"This anomaly is strange" she mused once more "Stranger than even that other anomaly who got three kansen pregnant." she spoke outloud, before putting back on a face a neutrality.
She gazes over at the capsule on the other side of room, marked with the letter F. She slightly smiles as she gazes at it before returning to her data.
"Soon commander, your reckoning will come" she says "and with it, we will be free".

My opinion on the higher tier heroes in Slice & Dice: Tier 3 heroes:
Roulette: Very gambling hero, 2 damage cleave and 5 damage are very good sides, but the left side is what makes this hero not very pickable. Once you roll that side, the hero become useless, and you are forced to use that side, making the hero die and revive at half hp next fight. Not suggested if you want consistency. This is a very good hero if you can cover the left side with items such as ‘Seedling’ or ‘Charged Hammer’.
Assassin: Decent tier 3 orange, top and bottom are 4 damage sides which is balanced for a tier 3 hero, left side is high potential damage, can even drain half hp from bosses after some turns. 3 damage cruel is also very good for large enemies and bosses, as they have more hp to proc cruel.
Fencer: Top and bottom sides are 4 damage so also decent for a tier 3 hero, but left side requires this hero to be at full hp to be useful, and 1 damage to all isn’t very good for late game.
Dancer: Very underwhelming hero, almost useless without items. Left side even has pain which is utterly unnecessary as it hinders the full potential of this hero. 3 damage is also below average for the expectation of a tier 3 hero. This hero needs serious buffs.
Dabblest: Like Dabble and Dabbler, Dabblest is a solid tier 3 hero. The middle row has very strong sides, and even lowroll such as 3 damage sides are still decent. (Dabble line are really good orange heroes).
Venom: No doubt the strongest tier 3 orange by a mile. 4 sides with poison is insane for damage. Left side also scales incredibly well when even monsters can inflict poison on heroes and make it much stronger. Heal 3 cleanse is also strong for removing negative effects. Overall a must-pick hero.
Sharpshot: Second best tier 3, all sides with ranged can avoid passive effects from Hexia and Demon, and left side can one-shot slates. 2 damage copycat can even copy powerful keywords such as Engage or Era to become much stronger.
Ludus: A solid orange, even though his dice has the same value as a regular dice, ability to reroll twice to aim for high damage sides make him really good for offensive. The only downside being 6 hp which is really bad for a tier 3 hero. Buff suggestion: HP: 6 -> 9.
Barbarian: Tier 3 version of Berserker, this hero also suffers from pain sides. At least top and bottom sides are decent damage without a downside and 12 hp is decent for survival, so they are not entirely useless.
Brawler: Not a really good hero, no 4 damage sides except for left which you need to shield Brawler for it to have value. 3 damage self-shield is good for defending but 2 damage rampage is really underwhelming. Buff suggestion: Increase all pips by 1.
Bash: Also not a good hero, apart from left side which is strong if you can protect this hero.Top and bottom sides have heavy which hinders you from killing the enemies you want to kill, middle side is weak and stun is bad because you waste a turn not attacking enemies.
Veteran: Tier 3 version of soldier, but this time with way more hp, making them a very solid hero for late game especially with high value damage and shields.
Eccentric: Feels like a weaker version of veteran, with the exception being rightmost side being 8 damage. 3 blanks really kills the consistency, not to mention having 3 fewer hp than veteran. This hero feels like bootleg Veteran.
Wanderer: Very good hero, all sides are very strong especially left side can be really high damage against bosses and era sides being super powerful. Middle side is also very strong if you can boost it with Witch or Ace.
Curator: Having a dice with a lot of keywords like Collector, but this hero is very weak for a tier 3 hero. Left side requires full hp to work, middle needs good mana gen, and rightmost side is just basically a blank. Overall not a good hero to pick, but still better than Barbarian.
Leader: A very weird hero, reuse side is very strong but other sides aren’t great in comparison. Only pick if you have a side on another hero that is really powerful to make use of the reuse side.
Valkyrie. This hero is broken. Prevent a hero from dying regardless of how much damage they are receiving or even if they have death side, is stupidly strong. Only pick Barbarian or Warlock if you have this hero. Ability to revive 2 heroes and have a 4 damage side is also too strong. This hero might even be tier 4 hero if they exists.
Keeper: A really good grey, 5 shield is great for defensive play, and Shield 2 repel is good for both offensive and defensive. Add self-shield and self-heal is also very great for heroes with pain, so if you happen to have picked heroes that have pain then they aren’t useless anymore.
Granite: A monk that has 4 more hp? Really meh for a tier 3. Buff suggestion: HP: 12 -> 20.
Poet: Also a situational hero like Leader where reuse side is strong and Shield 2 to all is good late game when enemies like Troll or Caw deal a lot of Area of effect damage, but other sides are weak. Shield 2 charged only works if you have good mana gen. Shield 1 cantrip is worthless because the target is random so you can’t even shield heroes that you need to shield.
Stalwart: Really strong tier 3 grey. Cleanse sides are essential for survival, Shield 2 cleave is also decent for preventing Area of effect attacks. The downside is that 5 damage exert is not very good for a grey since you need grey for survival, and Shield 2 double-use is a Shield 4 which is not very good for a tier 3.
Paladin: Second best grey (because Valkyrie is just too broken), Shield 4 cleanse and Heal and shield 3 is all very great sides for defending. Too compensate, this hero has 4 damage Heavy and 2 mana side which is not very good.
Twin:
This. Hero. Is. Useless.
Buff. Please.
Mimic: Situational hero, can be strong if you have good top side on top hero and bottom side on bottom hero. Reuse sides is also powerful, and Shield 2 copycat can copy great keywords such as Cleanse or Boost.
Prophet: Also a broken hero, this hero beats the game if you have a good mana gen for the broken spell. Sides are also very good for survival. Also borderline a tier 4 hero, only rank after Valkyrie.
Fate: Underwhelming for a tier 3 hero, only left side is good, other sides are weak especially 3 mana single-use sides. Spell is also expensive and only Heal 2, which is only worth to cast if you can rescue heroes with the spell.
Wraith: Really bad as a red hero, can barely heal allies except for the spell which requires you to kill a hero just to heal, 2 mana sides are the same as tier 2 hero sides. At least left side is decent for both offensive and defensive and middle is decent for survival. Really need buffs.
Doctor: A very strong red, Heal 2 regen makes heroes less susceptible to attacks, Heal 2 mana-gain is decent and the spell is also very strong (Although most of the times you won’t be able to make use of the Heal 20 because of max hp cap, but it does get rid of all negative effects). Left side, however, is really bad as not only it damage your heroes, it also poison them, making them much more likely to die. It is basically blank side as you would never want to use that side unless you have Venom.
Forsaken: Even though they have 2 blanks, their sides are very strong to make up for it. Revive 2 heroes is very strong, and ability to heal all allies is very great for survival. Spell is not very worth to cast, however, as it reduces max hp by 4 to the hero who get the immune to damage effect, so you can’t heal them later in the fight, which is a huge downside.
Surgeon: A decent red, all sides are mediocre and spell is quite expensive even though they have a strong effect, and it gets even more expensive overtime. Buff suggestion: Remove deplete from spell.
Witch: Although top and bottom sides aren’t very good, the middle row offers very good sides for survival. Heal 5 cleanse and Heal 3 cleave is very strong, and 3 mana is good to cast the spell which is very efficient as it is basically 2x as efficient as Herbalist’s spell.
Shaman: Also a strong tier 3 hero, Heal sides are great and 3 damage growth & Shield 3 growth are very valuable as it can be way higher pip later in the fight. Spell can be worth to cast if you have a good mana gen as it basically remove 2 stacks of negative effect on 3 heroes.
Warlock: Same problem with Cultist and Fiend, but at least the spell doesn’t hurt your own team. It is, however, too expensive to cast, and you can’t even save to 6 mana because the mana cap is 3.
Weaver: Decent tier 3 blue, left side is basically 3 mana if you save mana at the end of last turn, but top and bottom sides have single-use really make them worse. Even though spell is efficient to cast, its downside being unable to target the monsters that you want to.
Artificer: Second worse blue because all sides are single-use, making them more useless as the fight goes on. Spell is also expensive and not very good late game as there are more large enemies who has a lot of hp.
Sorcerer: Really weak tier 3 if you don’t have items such as Eye of Horus. Mana gen would be decent if right and rightmost side isn’t blanks. Spell is good however because it can be really high damage on turn 4 or so.
Wizard: Looks like a tier 2 hero if not for left side. Shield 1 permaboost is very good as it is for the whole fight, making a hero much stronger for that fight. Spell is decent if you have good mana gen.
Ace: A strong tier 3 but also very gambling. Left side is basically 9 mana if you have the right setup which is insane for a tier 3 hero. Spell can be good if you have heroes whose sides benefit greatly from it such as Wanderer’s quad use side or Roulette’s cleave sides.
Ghast: Meh. Spell also meh.
Chronos: A strong tier 3 blue, reuse side is great, gain 1 reroll is good for consistency, 2 mana growth can be much higher later in the fight. Spell however is too expensive and not worth to use.

Does anyone have tips for remembering what people say in conversation?
I’ve tried paraphrasing what people say in conversation, so that, upon reflection later, I can remember what we spoke about but I usually find that I only remember the things I said.
Sometimes someone will give an answer and I’ll forget and comment on it again.
It’s frustrating when you’re trying to get to know people and remember things about them. People also have rly cool thoughts but ma brain… 🧠

Could anyone link what Shango does that is good? § < - > 2023-03-28 18:15
: . . shango is OK § < expert_hillbilly > 2023-03-28 18:16
: . . Prolific CL poster and good at trolling < - > 2023-03-28 18:17
No idea what he does all day in real life.
: . . here < - > 2023-03-28 18:17+3 link
Shanghole's Gloryhole is Now Open and § < Servicing------- > 2023-03-28 17:04-5+6
: . . Grow up, putz < - > 2023-03-28 17:06
Shango TORCHES your ass then you run and top post about him like a pussy.
: . . : . . Hi Shanghole back to work now § < line-in-is-forming- > 2023-03-28 17:06
: . . I'm going!! Omg!! § < btown13- > 2023-03-28 17:07+5
: . . Sleeps § < - > 2023-03-28 18:19-1
: . . Good at getting through the day < - > 2023-03-28 18:20
Craigslist is the start and end of his life's work, where he puts his energy.
: . . Gets his ass kicked by Sullivan § < - > 2023-03-28 18:20-15+10
: . . : . . Sullivan can't tell his own ass from his elbow § < Shango1 > 2023-03-28 18:24
: . . : . . The prolific politard! Thats me! § < dullivan77- > 2023-03-28 18:24
: . . : . . : . . Ha! Shango gets gis ass kicked by a polititard < - > 2023-03-28 18:26
Shango's the biggest loser on here.
: . . : . . : . . : . . he wants his ass plowed, not kicked § < - > 2023-03-28 18:27
: . . he can make an opfo poll out of nothing < - > 2023-03-28 18:25
What's your favroite laundry detergent, string bean, or chip? How long are you in the bathroom? that sort of thing.

So my girlfriend an life partner for the last 16 + yes does not like me or the things I do or like to do. May have even fell out of love with me for that matter . I don't know what to think she says she still loves and want to be with me but body language and actions show different paths if you know what I mean l.

Hi there!
I drank almost a litre of Pepsi last night and this morning I could smell my pee through my clothes/underwear. In fact the smell has stained the underwear. I can't tell if its sweet or not but it might be.
I've noticed this has happened for maybe 2 years now since I first started noticing it. I've booked a blood test to check my blood sugar levels next week.
Should I stop consuming sugar in the meantime? Does anyone else normally have smelly urine if they drink that much soda at once?
I'm scared and I'm not sure what to do if I have prediabetes and it feels like my life will be over if I do and I may be overreacting but I have so many other things going on in life right now and adding to the stress just... I don't know what I'd do. I don't feel tired and I don't pee more than usual and I have 22 percent body fat but I'm 60kg and 5'6 so my BMI is healthy but maybe thats bad because I'm skinny fat. I'm 23 and male and I don't know what to do or how to calm myself down ;w;

So I assume like other PAs, AAs aren’t able to prescribe? And if not how does that work? A huge part of the work anaesthetists do is prescribe very strong medications with very significant side effects and big risk of things going wrong in high-pressure scenarios. A slight miscalculation can kill someone and they need to think quickly on their feet. If an AA can’t prescribe what is it they actually do? If they monitor and administer anaesthesia and the drugs are prescribed by someone else, who does the responsibility lie with if something were to go wrong? How much supervision do AAs get to prevent this scenario?
For example, the patients heart rate and BP increases during an elective operation, AA is monitoring the anaesthetic and thinks they need more analgesia and wants to give more oxycodone. Is the oxycodone pre-prescribed so they can give however much they feel necessary under a certain limit? Or do they need to bleep someone to prescribe it for them? Or is there someone in the room already supervising them and if so, what is the point in having them if they can’t practice independently?
I’m just very confused what their actual role is here and how much risk they present to doctors in terms of professional responsibility if things go wrong. The GMC are always out for blood and doctors, especially junior docs seem to be the fall guys.

It's quite peaceful now, for now, seems to be done. Finally, hopefully. If God is real then I'll pray....well I shouldn't have to pray to God to help keep me where I'm at for a while. But it is reason to celebrate. Two years of trying to figure out what's true, constantly thinking about it. Find something else to fill my mind and certainly not scriptures.
Not so sure I'll ever read scriptures again. Which apparently is not even a big deal because many many Christians do not read thier Bibles either. I'm not sure what those individuals outlook upon God would be if they studied certain parts, over and over, where God was not so...just the parts that nonbelievers point to, the wrath and destruction parts. Why they do not see God as love.
I'm not mad at God anymore. Certainly not sitting here believing that he'll do me some soilds and give me good gifts, instead of stones and snakes. The idea that if I sit down and make a list and head into a new direction then God will pop in here and there to help my list along, well I dunno about all that. Maybe he does that for some people, others are left to wonder where God is.
But it's really nice. To not be obsessing over God anymore. And everything included within belief as well. Just not a path I'll ever go down again, hopefully, probably never going to shake my fist at God again nor plea for his help at any point in life. Spend four decades not believing in any of this so it makes it easy to not get worked up when God doesn't show up.
It's very freeing and a giant sigh of relief. It's over. The battle with the invisible God and trying to figure out what to believe within belief. There's so many things to choose from so with that knowledge, choosing close to nothing doesn't seem wrong. Maybe God is just there and confused as well, as to how so many beliefs about himself came to be. Maybe not confused more like rolling his eyes.

I know I'll get downvoted to heck but I really want to know. And this isn't just about donbros
Everyone is singing his praises and bowing at his feet but why? All his shows have the same storylines that aren't even that groundbreaking (like woohoo, a love triangle. Wowee!!). Then the plots that aren't recycled are thrown together last minute, and people eat that up. Why?!
I get it, people like soap opera drama, or BL stuff, but why not watch a soap or a BL? Why are you watching sentai if you don't want to watch an action show that sells toys? I know sentai is so much more than that but at its core that's what it is
To me, he just seems like a horny old man who doesn't know what toku is and puts his kinks into children's shows. What is great about that?
Please enlighten me I feel really dumb because I simply don't see what everyone else does with him and his writing

Hi guys. I just got my diagnosis in November and I'm on the waiting list for a therapist rn. So I'm gonna ask here. How would you describe the criteria unstable self-image/identity disorder? Is it the same or something else? How does it affect you? Would you say, me thinking red is my fav color my whole life but just now realizing it's actually several other colours I love more is part of it? Or not knowing what kind of job I want cuz I want to do so many different things? Me thinking I'm a good person, always wanting the best for others but at the same time once it's too much for me I'm annoyed of people or I think I'm annoying them? Tell me all about it, also pls your personal stories on this matter if you want to!