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I’m so tired of people. I have a speech impediment where I can’t pronounce my Rs also I have a weird accent. so I NEVER talk to anyone (besides my parents and brother) because I sound stupid and nobody can understand me. People fun of me for not talking and when I do talk I get made fun of because of the speech impediment, I get so angry and upset it’s not even funny I just want to do the unspeakable to them.
I hate this so much I don’t know what to do, I want to tell my parents that I don’t want to talk anymore so bad, but I feel like I’ll get made fun off or they will tell my relatives and they will make fun of me. I just want to live in a beach in Hawaii or Florida and crack open coconuts all day long.

ever since our Costco started using kiosk check out for the food court, the single pick up line is usually very long. By the time I got to second in line, the employee working the window just disappeared and the line stalled out. At the same time another window was opened and instead of taking the next person in line, they allowed everybody to rush it.. to make things worse, this line was hauling ass. out of nowhere, costco chad offered to let me go next. made my day 😅, thank you costco bro.

Need some advice. I am a 27F and currently on vacation in Hawaii for 4 weeks. I met a guy who I clicked with right away. He came to Hawaii to celebrate his 17th birthday and here for 3 weeks. We are both from the same country which is pretty cool
I'm here with my grandma and he's there with his older cousin. I bumped to him at the beach last week. We are both into surfing and went together few times. We went dancing as well. He can actually dance and it was so nice dancing with someone that legit dance. We just clicked and it just feel comfortable talking to him. He's like one of those ppl that actually make you feel good about yourself/more confident when you are around them. Very rare to find. Most ppl are pleasant and nice/kind on the surface but don't have that effect
Yesterday I bumped into him in a beach alone and ended up talking/laughing for about 6 hours about random stuff and made these really neat sand castles and sand snow men. I don't know what it is about him but everything he does is so.. so alluring. Little stuff like just brushing his hands through his hair, his dimples, the darn lip bites. Around 11pm we finally decided to go to our hotels to sleep. He decided to kiss me all of a sudden and we made out for several minutes and there was some light groping and we almost had oral sex until I ended it. I just simply said we haven't done anything to be ashamed of but we shouldn't go further than this. He was super respectful and apologized and we went our separate ways.
I spent the whole day with him today but he hasn't tried anything with me. I know this wouldn't be a long term thing but even short term fling is nice to think about. Sexual fling would be nice but given the situation I am leaning more towards romantic fling ( just making out, holding hands, cuddling etc and not sex). If we are still somehow in contact after he turns after he turns 18 then maybe it can esclaate to a sexual one. But the sexual aspect is not a priority to me. I would still want to be with him if we never had sex. It just feels people are ok with such relationship if both parties are 18 and over. But 17 is only 1 year younger and age of consent in Canada is 16.
What are you thoughts on morality of such situation? I would really appreciate non emotionally charged answers (it's easier to communicate with people who use logical reasoning than just emotional)

I (20m) am conflicted on deciding between my relationship with my girlfriend (19f) of 2 years, and going away to college where I want to.
Some important background:
I currently live in a pretty big city with my girlfriend, where she goes to university. Both our families all live in this city. She has been going to university for 2 years and lives on campus the first semester before we moved in together.
I moved out of my parent’s home at 18 because my stepfather is abusive. I have worked full time+ and paid to live on my own since then. I have split rent with my girlfriend since we moved in together, and I finally started college classes. All my adult life I have felt a sense of responsibility to protecting my mom and brothers, and have always been stressed by feeling responsible for them.
I am about to graduate with my associates degree and will be deciding where to transfer to school. I want to transfer to a beach school and live near the only healthy family I have. This however is hours away from where my gf goes to school and we refuse to do long distance.
I love my girlfriend dearly and she is my best friend. I have struggled some with attraction to her and various things, but now that I have been vocal everything has been good. She is the perfect girlfriend and I don’t deserve her. She is so gentle and I don’t want to ever hurt her. I do love her very much. But I don’t know if I want to sacrifice things I want to do in life such as go away to school and travel abroad and I feel like I have to have a more linear plan staying with her.
I don’t want to leave her and hurt her or never find someone as kind as her again, but I don’t want to live with regret of not exploring the world and getting out of this bubble I’ve grown up in.
What should I do?
Thank you for any advice. I don’t know exactly what I’m looking for.

Pretty plain and simple. I hate life. I am a sophomore in college and i wanted to kill myself sophomore year of highschool, I stuck it through, obviously, it I have simply learned I hate everyone and every thing. I thoguht things will ups get better, but they don’t. Everyone I talk to is a total dick to me since I’m overweight and stuttering (I lost 50lbs for a while and noticed a massive difference in how I was treated.) I’ve had the stutter my whole life and nothing has fixed it, no one likes to talk to me because of how it takes me so long to talk.
I thought college was going to be better, but it ended up with me getting left out of pretty much everything, even in a friend group that “cared” for me. I was robbed at gunpoint on my campus, and a girl I was talking to tried to control my actions by serving ultimatums of hanging out with other dudes or slitting her wrist to control me, and I would have to help clean up the mess.
I’m tired of it. No one talks to me unless I start the conversation, no one wants to hang out with me unless it is a common event (big party) or unless I try to make plans and stress over them.
I have one good friend, they are amazing and I love them to the moon and back, but it simply keeps getting worse. If there were no consequences I seriouslywould roam around and tell everyone off and get really nasty.
I’ve tried therapy twice, the first one said I wanted to kill myself because I had a gluten/dairy allergy (news flash, I don’t) and the one I’m currently with is barely even helping because they are about to graduate and can fuck off and do whatever.
I feel like shit all the time, my head is constantly running with thoughts, I can barely even enjoy being around other people like my family and I just finished a week at the beach thanks to them for taking me and i feel like a total dick for being irritable/distanced.
I am in a fraternity, but will most likely go inactive at the start of this semester, which leaves me in an awkward spot for housing as I live with people associated with the chapter and kinda the “leftovers.”
I’ve tried medication, but it makes me extremely angry, not in a violent way but I will start fuming over small issues when they shouldn’t be an issue.
At this point I’m about to give up, and it already feels like I have. I hate everyone, everything, and life. Nothing gives me joy besides getting extremely crossed and hoping something gets better. I’ve even tried sobriety, and even 2 months of that has not helped.

I recently traveled alone as a young woman from Colombia (where I visited some family friends) back home to the US. I was also in Brazil a couple of weeks prior to this.
My flight back home had two flights: one domestic in Colombia and then one from Colombia to the US. I didn't notice at the time, but when both my boarding passes were printed at the counter prior to my first flight, a scribble was marked on my boarding pass for the flight from Colombia to the US.
Nothing odd occurred on the domestic flight, but prior to the international flight, a flight attendant at the gate went around checking boarding passes. I, along with ten or so people were pulled aside until after everyone else had boarded and were asked customs-like questions by the gate attendant (What are you doing in Colombia, how long were you here for, etc.). I am a US citizen who does not fluently speak Spanish, but I noticed that the others pulled aside clutched Colombian passports. The attendant, who spoke English, was smiley and nice, but saved my domestic flight's boarding pass and I did not bother to ask for it back or why they took it. I don't recall if they made the same scribble on that boarding pass since I no longer have it.
I was let through with no issue, but then after the gate and prior to boarding, each person (not just the ones pulled aside) boarding the flight went through a secondary security screening for their carry-on items. Little kiosks were set up for security agents to go through personal items. The water and juice that I bought post-security had to be thrown out, but the food I purchased was safe, which I had never had happen to me before.
What does the scribble mean, and was this flight experience odd?

I've been feeling really down this week and really want to just go on a really long drive and listen to music alone. I live in Long Beach but I'm willing to make the drive anywhere in SoCal and even make a daytrip tomorrow if it needs be. I went on a trip to Oregon recently and drove through lots of green and dense forests and really enjoyed it so I guess I want to feel that again. Thank you
Edit: if theres a short hike (<5miles) to a nice scenery nearby that would be a huge bonus but not necessary.

i’m 15, so is she. my girlfriend, i guess now ex girlfriend, or six months cheated on me a couple days ago. she went to a beach house with her friends, and it is a private beach. She told me that she went to a bonfire with her friends, and that there were a few of one of her friend’s guy friends there. I thought nothing of it, I trusted her. Turns out, when I’m at her house this morning, and I decide to go through her phone, I find texts between her and this guy. I scroll up a bit, and that is when she pulls the phone out of my hand, I ask jokingly, is there something you have to hide? She kept saying no, then I asked why don’t you let me look at your phone then? this went on back-and-forth for a little, until I just started to leave her house in anger. I look back, and said, let me look at your phone or I’m leaving right now. She then said let me just tell you what happened instead, I compromise and said OK. She said, when I was at the beach house with my friends, and we went to the bonfire, we all laid on the beach and looked at the stars. The guy came and laid next to me and held my hand. I got pissed. I asked what did you do in return, she said she didn’t know, and she panicked. I started to go off on her, then I asked for her phone again to make sure she’s not lying. I wanted to see if there was anything else. She was still hesitant, and then I eventually looked at her phone, and saw slightly flirtatious text between the two. the most flirting i ever found was “if i could hug u rn i would”. I left in immense anger and told her we are done. She has never done anything like this at all before, and to a 15 year old six months is a long time in a relationship. She really is the first person I’ve ever loved, and I do not want this to end. I blocked her on everything except her Instagram because I forgot to, and she has texted me at least 30 times including multiple paragraphs saying how sorry she is that she fucked up and she knows she fucked up. She also texted me before I blocked her an apology. she took full responsibility for what she did didn’t try to defend her self at all, and said she was sorry, and said I deserve better. On Instagram, she kept asking for a second chance she promised multiple times that would never happen again, and such. I do not want to lose her, obviously I don’t know if I can ever truly trust her again, and even if we do get back together, I will never think of her the same as I did before. But, I do not want this to end. I don’t know what to do, I feel that someday it would maybe work out. But I don’t know. I want to know if there’s a way it could ever work out, I just don’t know what to do.

Hey there,
I am currently at a point in my life where I'm considering a move to a new city within a drivable distance of a medium to large-sized city. I've been living in the consulting world for the past 10+ years which has taken me from the mid-west to Virginia, and now up in the North East. I could write a book about how sick and tired I am of everything that is the NE and I'm sick and I'm also sick and tired of throwing money away at expensive rent.
I'd love to live near the Triangle but due to the boom and high prices, it doesn't seem possible. This has led me to consider alternatives such as Greensboro, Winston-Salem, and Greenville. Of those options which do you think has the brighter future and why? Also, which has a better downtown area w/ good food/festivals/etc.
BTW in case it matters I'm not coming down there to change anything or tell anyone "you gotta do things this way like they do in the North" I'm coming down to hopefully plant roots, eat well, and live well and maybe see the beach and mountains on long weekend trips.

Household Income = $866k (>$900k with current stock prices); $533k and $333k for self and spouse Spouse and I both maxing 401k (+ match), backdoor ROTH and mega backdoor ROTH for yearly contribution of $137K Net after retirement and taxes = $450k/year or $37.5k/month
HCOL Area (One tier down from Bay Area/NYC): Home Value $1.8M (fairly conservatively, could see 1.9-2M) Purchased Price $1.175M in 2014 Remaining Mortgage $780K (2.875% for ~25 more years)
Recurring monthly expenses: $16K Mortgage and Taxes $5,200 Home Insurance + Umbrella $225 Life Insurance (for both spouses) $90 Car Insurance $230 Gas $100 Daycare $5,200 (drops to $2,700 in September) After School $750 (increases to $1,500 in September) Groceries $1,500 Dining out and takeout $1,000 TV, Internet and Streaming $300 Electricity $300 Gas $350 Water and Sewer $125 Cleaners $500 Landscapers $250 Pest $50 Gym $300
Net Worth $3.6M (with home equity) $1.3M in Retirement Accounts $830k in Brokerage Accounts (public companies, mostly index) $150k Common Stock in private company (my startup exited last year to private equity and 3/4 paid out to cash and 1/4 rolled over as common stock) - Feeling fairly good about this 2-3x over next 3-5 years Checking/Savings $115K $160k - Spread across three 529 accounts
Wife and I are 37 and 38. We have 3 kids (2, 5 and 7) and are done reproducing.
Missing monthly expenses are probably clothes (which I'll estimate around $1,000) and vacations. Due to timing and having kids combined with Covid, we've barely vacationed in the last 7 years since having kids. We spent maybe $3K for 4 days at a driving distance beach house last year. This summer we are celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary flying our kids and a few family members to where we got married and rented a 6 BR AirBnB with a pool on the beach with some family members joining. Even all in this will be less than $10K. We think next year might be prime ages for a trip to Disney (3, 6 and 8), if anybody has any idea of cost and recommendations for a fat Disney trip.
Big questions are what exactly to do with the $15-20K after tax cash per month. My primary thought is just Boglehead into VTI, VXUS and BND, which is fairly close to how our retirement funds are distributed. I'm curious if there are better ways to diversify overall investments beyond just traditional equity markets.
One thing I'm really considering is buying a second home. After our mortgage our daycare (currently $5,200/month) is by far our most significant monthly expense. We'll cut it by 40% this fall and it'll be gone in 3 years. The way I look at it $5,200/month is one hell of a mortgage payment. I really like the idea of buying a summer home on the water (within about 1-1.5 hours from our home). Where I'm looking I see places in the $1-1.6M range, which is somewhere in the $6-10k/month mortgage at current rates. I'd want to budget under the assumption of no supplemental income, but would not be opposed to doing some limited renting (especially if there are any tax or expense benefits to be had). I really like the idea of purchasing in the next 1-3 years where my kids could make memories growing up. With remote work, I can see the family spending months at a time in summers and possibly even moving to some sort of snowbird situation once the kids are into college. This would certainly have a massive impact on liquid assets for saving and firing. What do I really need to be considering in adding a second property?
With our 1.3M in retirement accounts now, if we add $140K/year for the next 15 years we'd be at about $6.5M at 6% interest in tax advantage accounts. Saving an additional $10k/month in brokerage accounts on top of current balances for 15 years would be $3-4M range taking some long term capital gains into account. With a $10M target (do we think that's a realistic target 10-15 years from now or is $20M gonna be the new $10M?) and including home equity (do we believe in including this?) then firing in less than 15 years time definitely seems feasible.

Hello, I am selling 1 ticket that I bought from stubhub, Orchestra, Row 4, seat 18. Reason for selling is I bought a better seat, asking the same price I paid for it which is $400. Only accepts paypal or zelle.

Hey! I'm looking for some new people to talk to. I work from home and I'm fairly new to the state so my social life is almost nonexistent. 🙃 Which I'm cool with most of the time since I'm really introverted, but it'd be nice to have someone to talk to sometimes hahah. I'm really looking for genuine connections, ideally something long term.
I'm very independent and hard working. I'm pretty successful for my age and I'm very grateful. I meditate daily. I have a little dog son who does everything with me! We're always at a new park or the beach. I bought a house last summer and I've been doing a bunch of projects on it! My house is definitely a ~vibe~ haha. Speaking of vibes, I'm very 420 friendly. 🍃 I love stand up comedy and seem to go to a show or two a month lately. Who is your favorite comedian of all time?
Just want some cool people to talk to. I'm single and typically prefer talking to those who are single as well. Share your favorite music with me, exchange recipes, complain about your boring work day, anything.
I look forward to talking to you!

1 Good and Caring Boyfriend available for pick-up, delivery or download for the right person. Free Trials available! Find out more within:
First a few exclusions, offer only available to those who meet the below qualifications:

• A decent and respectful human being (This ain’t hard people, it takes no effort to be a decent human)
  
• At or under the age of 33. (bonus points the closer you are to 27)
  
• A woman or otherwise AFAB & not male identifying.
  
• Not a cat owner (sorry I’m allergic)
  
• Comfortable having a relationship with a neurodivergent partner
  
• Isn’t going to randomly ghost me after a nice conversation (just tell me your not interested if your not interested) PLEASE, DO NOT IGNORE THIS POINT!
  
• Within 25 miles of LA, OR open to a LDR with the goal of coming together within 3 years. I am open to someone from ANYWHERE USA, Europe, Asia etc… If I believe we can make the time difference work…
  
• Not Asexual (I have a sex drive and if your sex-negative that’s just not gonna work long term. That said I’m not gonna ask you to smash me right off the bat like some creep. I just don’t want to waste your or my time long term if your mind is made up on this subject.)
  

About Me (Your potential boyfriend ❤️) : * 27 Years Young ;) * Man AMAB * 6’6 tall and roughly 255 pounds * White (Swedish/Jewish ancestry if that matters to you) * Agnostic (I don’t plan to interfere with your religion but please don’t push me to practice yours, If I’m comfortable I may join you for Church events and I’m not afraid of celebrating Holidays. I just simply won’t change my beliefs.) * Wears glasses with blueish eyes * Long brown hair (Don’t message me asking me to cut it for a relationship with you, that’s the biggest turn off ever.) * Pilot in training (hobby) * College educated * Possesses a stable job * Smoke/Drug free human that rarely if ever drinks Alcohol. * Enjoys music/tv/movies daily * Gamer * Anime lover * Archer * Tattoo’d with intention of getting more. I never intend to Tattoo my face, neck or hands. * Open to children, could also live without them. The ball there is in your court.
5 Quick reasons why I’m incredible boyfriend material:

• You’ll never be cold. I am literally a human space heater and I will always be willing to hand you my jacket or shirt for extra warmth even on the coldest days. What’s even better is that because of my height it’s likely to fit you like a nice blanket ☺️
• You’ll have a professional photographer on standby whenever you want! Need that perfect photo at the beach? Your man is ready to go!
• Had a long day at work? I give amazing rubs and scratches! Everything from head and back scratches to shoulder and leg rubs! I’ll do them all and not complain about doing it like some will.
• I will legitimately cuddle until we fall asleep any time you ask. I never refuse a cuddle session and I can assure you it will be top tier cuddles 😸 you’ll think you are being hugged by a panda 😻.
• Parents adore me, you can bring me home to your family without fear of your father bringing out the shotgun. I do not smoke at all and I am at most a social drinker on very special occasions. Heck me and your dad might end up being best friends. I love meeting family and family usually loves meeting me 😇.

Do I sound fun? Consider this an AMA. Hit me up and enjoy the fact that I’m an open book waiting for a lovely reader 🙏❤️
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HappyFriday everyone! Hope the day is going well for y’all. Looking for new people to chat with short or long term doesn’t matter to me but no minor’s. Happy to chat about anything, share corny jokes and share pics of my pets and artwork. With that being said I do dabble in spray paint art as well as photography. I’m also very outdoorsy so I like to ride my bike, go camping, fishing, hiking and chill on the beach. So if any of this sounds good to you then send me chat with a little bit about yourself. Well hope to hear from some of y’all soon and have a great weekend.

Long story short, out of nowhere, my husband started receiving a couple of hundred text messages in a matter of an hour all spam. At the same time the email tied to his Hilton account (not our usual email) also started getting a couple hundred emails in an hours time. Long story short, in the middle of all those emails, was a email from Hilton saying we had changed out email address linked to account. We had not. Called the 800# and they were great! They gave back all our stolen points and told hubby someone was attempting to stay in a Hilton at pompano beach w points. We have been saving our points for about 3 years. Thank you Hilton for all the help!!!

22 year old female here. Ive been dating this guy who's 22 as well for a couple of months now and I've grown fond of him. He's a really sweet and amazing guy and I definitely want to go further with him but his closeness with his mom is sort of creeping me out.
Apologies in advance for the long post.
Ive never really been close to my parents. Ive had issues with them during my teens and left home when I was 18. I eventually reconciled with them, but I still maintain a distance with them.
I met my boyfriend a couple of months back. He told me about his story where his dad was abusive to him and his mom, and they both had to run away from him and move to another country. He told me that his mom meant alot to him and he really loved and adored her. I found it sweet at first, especially knowing how his mom raised him up on her own and knowing about her struggles.
Only after we started spending more time together did I start seeing how close they were. My biggest issue initially was they both shared a one bedroom apartment. His mom used the bedroom, and he told me he slept in the hall. I asked him why he didn't get his own place and he said that they had a lot of loans to clear out they were doing this due to finances.
Sometimes, he would stay over at my place during weekend's and he and his mom would speak on the phone 4 to 5 times a day. And on an average, their conversation would last for 15 minutes. I on the other hand call my parents maybe twice a month and our conversation wouldn't go longer than 5 minutes.
Another day, we stopped by his place since he had to pickk up something. He said he neede to use the washroom. His mom was in the shower that time and he just casually walks in uses the toilet. I asked him what was that about . He just laughed and said mom spends ages in the shower, so she just closes the shower curtain so that she doesnt close the door so I can use the toilet.
I kind of was ok with all this, but what really creeped me out the most was 2 weeks back. It was his moms birthday and she had planned a trip for just the two of them for a couple of days. I couldn't call and text him during the trip ,just a few occasional messages that was it. I didnt bother too much and give him his space. He was back the following weekend and I aksed him how was the trip. He just said it was alright they spent sometime at the beach and did some site seeing.
He was at my place the next weekend, and I did something that I shouldn't have done and feel horrible. We had a couple of drinks with some friends and he crashed at my place. He was drunk and fast asleep . He mom had tried calling his phone, and I saw many missed calls and messages. I got a little worried, so I tried to call his mom back from my phone, but my battery was dead. I decided to text her from his phone, but as soon as I opened his chat with his mom, I came across a photo of her in an extremely skimpy bikini which was definitely something I would expect a mom to wear infront of her son. I assumed he had taken it, and he shared it with her.
After calling her and telling her that we were ok, I was curious and went into his gallery. There were few photos from the trip in his gallery, but none of her in any bikinis. So I again went into his chat with her and saw a ton of other pics of her in similary revealing bikini. I figured he had deleted them from his gallery. What caught my eye was a photo where there was a bathtub next to the window, and she was in it looking outside . Her back turned towards the camera, and she definitely didn't have any clothes on. She had replied back with a wink . A part of me wanted to go through the rest of the messages, but I knew it was wrong.
I haven't been able to get it off my mind and I'm not sure if im over reacting or of this is normal. I dont want to confront him regarding this and come out looking as a creep. I dont have anything against his mom and she seems great and we've never had any issues as well.

My recollection of the dream starts at some party, where I enter a bathroom occupied by a dozen guys, and as soon as a girl walks in, they all start sitting on the long counter. They start telling me she's a bad influence because she's a cheater. I didnt mind that so I left the party to get something I thought would help me with her, and ended up on the east coast of Florida, and there's a highway going down all along the coast, ending at a deity's sanctum on the southern tip. The highway to the sanctum is a recurring location in my dreams; the deity is usually a Goddess, sometimes a nature Goddess, sometimes Death herself. I went to the beach next to the highway and found a clear crystal, and I immediately wanted to do some magic, so I headed down to the sanctum. My mom happened to be in the area, so I met with her and told her about the sanctum, since Mom is a witch and I thought she would like it, so we headed down.
For some reason, the highway went through some large rooms hosting a fancy rich people event and dinner, so we went through there discreetly. I ended up disrupting it when I saw to my right a door that I thought also held a dimensional portal and tried to go through the portal, only find out it had been removed during the renovation for the party, and replaced with a garbage chute. I dropped the clear crystal I found into it and tried to retrieve it, but it was in wet sewage so I gave up, and exited back onto the highway to resume the trip to the Sanctum.
In this dream it was the nature goddess' abode, but it was also being visited by other people as if the dream was an online MMO. It was there that mom took it over and revealed she had been cheating on Dad and tried to kill me once I confronted her. When trying to get her to realize common sense turned futile, I evacuated and headed back up the highway heading north at first, but I split to the west following a boarded trail to find another dimensional portal. Eventually the terrain dropped and I realize I'm holding a leash to a small dog, so we ran down the board bridge, but hit a dead end when we saw it had been partially collapsed. We tried to balance on it but the dog fell into the water below and I went in after it to take it to safety. Mom was still looking for me so I teleported out west. (The fate of the dog is unknown). I ended up in another recurring dream location in Wyoming, where a highway turns south in a mountain town to head to Denver. The place was triggering me due to memories of visits in past dreams, and I saw no dimensional portals, but I knew there was one in Los Angeles, so I teleported there.
I ended up in a house somewhere, and there was a door to a basement. Opening it revealed a stairway down to a corridor with spiders and spider webs. The dimensional portal was at the end of it, in front of another door. I realize a couple guys are with me, and when I get to the bottom of the stairs, I see the spiders and realize my shorts were down, so I pulled them back up before a spider could crawl up there. We go through the portal into another universe and open the door, which leads to a furnace room and some stairs headind down. One set going to the right, with 5 steps, and then to the left some split level stairs. We followed them and the next door opened into an office room. A living skeleton was in the left corner on the other end of the room, with a few more guys, next to an archway leading to an arcade room. The living skeleton turned out to be a woman wearing a magic necro mask. It tended to corrupt the wearer with promises of power, so it couldn't be worn for long. Before the girl took it off, she breathed a dark flag into existence for keepsakes. Once she took it off, she reverted to her normal human self. I wanted to wear it next because I wanted to create something for myself.
I put it on, and I transformed into a necroid. At first I wanted to create a "plutonium fusion bomb," a magically enchanted thermonuclear device from my sci fi world building project that can create a star. Then I couldn't truly decide on what I wanted to do, and the people around me kept telling me I needed to take it off soon or it would permanently bind to me and corrupt me. I also kept trying to get comfortable with the gloves the mask made for me. At one point I considered dabbling in necromancy (what the mask was originally meant for by its unknown creators). At last I thought of something I really wanted to do: Come to the IRL universe and breathe a real magic system into our universe. The guys around me immediately disagreed, saying that it would be taken advantage of by the wrong people. I immediately began running out the office/arcade to head back up the stairs to the dimensional portal back to our universe, to breathe my sci fi universe's magic system into our universe, and the people started running after me to rip the mask off my head. I held my hand on my head to prevent them from taking it off, and I had just almost made it to the door when they succeeded.
I screamed "Damn you fcking dream characters!" I mouthed it in real life but it didnt wake me up. I ran after them and jumped over the ledge over the bottom stairs, catching them by surprise and I wrestled the mask away and put it back on. As I ran back up the split level stairs, I decided I had enough of these guys so I breathed a living skeletal marine with an AR-15 to gun down the other people so I could make it back to the IRL universe with the mask to give it the magic system I always wanted. The skeletal marine had fired several rounds and I was about to breathe a second one into existence when my phone began ringing and woke me up.
I am hard of hearing, but had to leave it on cuz I was expecting a call from my life coach but he never came. Instead the call was from my mentally disabled baby brother, a figure in my life who seems to represent everything I hate about my life. Because reasons. I rejected the call, took off my hearing aid, and tried to go back to sleep. But I was too infuriated by the turn of events to fall back asleep so now I'm posting here, mainly to vent.
Naturally it wouldnt have made our IRL universe magical IRL, but that would have been a great feeling/placebo to wake up to. But this turn of events only serves to reinforce my utter hopelessness ive developed lately. Which is funny, i guess, since feeling hopeless about reality and how shitty all my dreams have become the past few decades was on my mind when I fell asleep.
While succeeding in my crusade in my dream may have waken me up feeling hope and feeling good about it, I have been thinking lately that hope only serves to prolong suffering. Like that one scene from that one movie, where the guy says "Dont do that. Dont give me hope."
Sorry for rambling lol

Is anyone else too scared to cut, burn or hit themselves so they emotionally self harm? Such as berating yourself and reminding yourself of everything you're not and will likely never be.
One way I self harm is by going downtown on Friday or Saturday night and just watching everyone in big groups with their friends or on dates and ask myself, "why can't I be here?" It reminds me of a night where me and my friend went downtown for Oktoberfest and he made a bunch of new friends, hit on a bunch of girls and had a great time, while I just followed him around like an errand boy. Every time I tried the same thing, I was either ignored or rebuffed completely, so I just sat on a bench chainsmoking the whole night.
Just going downtown when I'm out working Doordash is enough to send me into a tailspin and I often need to stop and get control of myself.
Another way is looking at a picture of an old crush and coworker I had who I loved so much. I'm not exaggerating when I say I loved her. She was so beautiful, smart, actually made me laugh a few times and was so sweet to everyone, even me. But I was too much of a bitch to ask her out and then she moved away to Long Beach. So now I look at her picture and tell myself "you fucked this up", "you did this", "you could have had it all but you're a weak, insignificant little bitch".
Does anyone else do stuff like this?

Is anyone else too scared to cut, burn or hit themselves so they emotionally self harm? Such as berating yourself and reminding yourself of everything you're not and will likely never be.
One way I self harm is by going downtown on Friday or Saturday night and just watching everyone in big groups with their friends or on dates and ask myself, "why can't I be here?" It reminds me of a night where me and my friend went downtown for Oktoberfest and he made a bunch of new friends, hit on a bunch of girls and had a great time, while I just followed him around like an errand boy. Every time I tried the same thing, I was either ignored or rebuffed completely, so I just sat on a bench chainsmoking the whole night.
Just going downtown when I'm out working Doordash is enough to send me into a tailspin and I often need to stop and get control of myself.
Another way is looking at a picture of an old crush and coworker I had who I loved so much. I'm not exaggerating when I say I loved her. She was so beautiful, smart, actually made me laugh a few times and was so sweet to everyone, even me. But I was too much of a bitch to ask her out and then she moved away to Long Beach. So now I look at her picture and tell myself "you fucked this up", "you did this", "you could have had it all but you're a weak, insignificant little bitch".
Does anyone else do stuff like this?